Found this lovely scripture in my daily devotional, "May the Lord direct your hearts into God's love and Christ's perseverance." -2 Thessalonians 3:5
Lysa (Made To Crave Devotional) says we are just one good choice away from perseverance. What is perseverance? It means having an urgency, firmness, resolve, and consistency. I don't know about you, but I could use some of that in my weight loss journey! I wrote awhile back about how that is my new word; perseverance. Through all these trials with my health and weight and yes, even getting my house organized, I will persevere. It may take a lot of grace, but I will do it. I will not give up or back down this time around.
Update on the company that charged us 7 times. All of the 'pending' transactions should be back in the bank by now, so that makes about 1/2 of the money back in the account. By law, when a company does this they have 15 days to return the money to your account. So the rest of the money won't get here right away. We've blocked them, so any future attempts at doing this will be denied by the bank. But on the bright side, DH has learned a lesson I think. I'm rather upset with him over this whole thing. This was to be a tight paycheck and we were to not spend any extra money, and he goes and blows $200 on whatever this stupid company sells. I'm very frustrated and am waiting till I cool down to talk to him about it. Never helps to try and have these discussions when you are angry. And he's always so touchy when it comes to talking about money. He said he wanted to see a financial advisor a few months ago, and I'm hoping he still will do that. What makes me the most upset is that I've got several health issues going on right now and I can't make any of the appointments that I need till I know we have money to pay the copay. You don't mess around with diabetes, when you have an issue you go to the doctor. *sigh* But being upset won't help the matter any, so I'm going to release it and move on to what I can do, which is talk to DH about future use of money.
I'm physically exhausted. My body needs a break, so I'm taking one this morning. I've been working out hard and my body needs to catch up! I may do a small cardio workout later today, but I'm going to use this as a rest day
I don't know what I'm going to do about my coffee. I love it with sugar in it, but I don't need the sugar. It sends my glucose levels up and I don't need that either. I guess I'm going to start by reducing the sugar from 2 tsp to 1 tsp. And no, I won't do artificial sweeteners, to me that is worse. I'm trying to eat more naturally and artificial sweeteners go against that. I'll learn to like my coffee with less sugar, one cup at a time. i'll just keep reducing by half till I don't have any sugar in it. I can't switch to chai because I put just as much sugar in it. LOL. I take honey in most of my tea's. Except green tea, I drink it plain.
This is one of the pictures from my vision collage. No it's not one of my pictures, but it speaks volumes to me. Before I met my husband, I'd go with friends back home to TN and we'd rent open river kayaks and take an overnight trip on the Buffalo river. It's not a very fast moving river, so we'd load up they kayaks, and spend a lazy two days on the river and camp over night under the stars. It was lovely. It was quite the upper body workout. We met a lot of people that way. Or we'd go to park and go hiking. Or go back to my old home and hike through the woods i used to as a child. I miss that. I miss getting out and going on adventures in nature. Because that's what is was, an adventure. I want to do that with my girls. I want them to have the same kind of love for nature I had/have. But I need to get this weight off, get in shape or I'll never be able to get out there and carry that heavy pack or kayak for that long. So many reasons to get up and get moving. They outweigh (hehehe) my reasons not to by a long shot!
And that's just it, isn't it? I think I'm not able, so I'm not. I think I can't get out there and go hiking/camping/kayaking and so I don't, so I'm not. No more! I'm going to get out there and conquer the day! I can do these things, being overweight is just a road block in my mind, I can still do it. And this summer, I'm hoping I can go camping at least once with the kids and DH. That is a new goal, go camping. I can't wait!