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The One Where I'm Sparkling (again)

Saturday, February 20, 2016

I have been away from spark for several years. I moved most of my blogs to my personal blog and ditched spark. www.pfuhlforyou.blogspot.com

I left spark in the fall of 2012 after I had an accident and broke my arm. I couldn't work out. I couldn't prepare meals, let alone track them.

I started over on losing weight at the first of the year 2013. And I got down below my original goal weight. It took a lot of work. A lot of preparing. A lot of obsession over every bite of food and every workout. I saw the number I wanted, but I was miserable. Unhappy in my own skin.

As soon as I loosened up on the obsession, I gained weight. 😕 5 pounds and to me it was the end of the world.

I maintained though for about a year. I was still running and working out and tracking.

At the beginning of 2014 I started a new job at a dietetic firm. I absorbed every detail. I learned so much. I was a sponge. I had new life, new tools, new obsessions!

August 2014 I had an injury that set me back and I gained another 5 pounds. By the time I could workout again and really get in the groove again, tragedy struck my family.

My dad died, my dad shot himself. That was nearly a year ago.

Running got me through 2015 and good running partners. And Jesus and grief therapy and emotional eating. And I'm nearly back to my highest weight as when I started Spark.

I was in the middle of marathon training when I made the mistake of not switching out my shoes often enough. January 9th was my last long run. It should have been 18 miles. It ended at 15. I had to stop because my quad was on fire!

I rested a week. Tried to run again. Nope. No go. I called the Doctor. I needed an MRI. The results are three tears in my left knee. 1. Where the it band attaches at the knee. 2. On the MCL side 3. On the ACL side.

Marathon training was over. And the scale keeps going up.

What worked for me in the past, that also didn't make me an obsessed disordered eating, workout obsessed person was SparkPeople.

It's tracking isn't rigid. It's workouts are fun. It's accountability is what I need.

I'm a dietetic student now. I see things through a scientific eye and that's helping me a lot. I look forward to making new spark friends and getting back to a healthy weight. 😊
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    Welcome back. Looking forward to reading all about your journey.
    1870 days ago
    I had no idea of all the things you have been through. I am so happy you are back. I am always here for you
    1876 days ago
    Thank you for sharing your story. And, I am very sorry for the loss of your dad. As you know, food is such a source of comfort for so many. I, too, had lost a lot of weight, started nursing school and gained a good amount back, and now with the help of Spark, I am back to my goal weight. My husband thinks I'm obsessed but I am determined to maintain this weight loss so I never again have to face that process of losing, gaining, losing, gaining..........I reached goal weight earlier this month and will continue tracking my food and exercise for a minimum of one year. But, since this is the method that has brought success, I see no reason to stop after that. All the best to you on this journey that you are sure to win.
    1882 days ago
    Oh hon, I am so sorry for your loss. You seem determined, and you can be healthy without being obsessive. There is group here on Sparks called Inside Out Weightloss. It may be great support for you on your journey to regain health . emoticon emoticon
    1886 days ago
    So sorry to hear about your Dad... that would throw anyone for a loup! Glad things are coming together for you.
    1886 days ago
  • ANNC16
    I struggle with the obsessive side of losing weight and I find that spark people helps me with that.
    1887 days ago
    Welcome. You can do this!
    1887 days ago
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