Yesterday's therapy appointment went well. My therapist said I'm ready to go to the next level. I was like,
level up! I don't know exactly what that entails, but I'm glad I'm doing well enough to move on.
My psychiatry appointment ran so late that I finished my book Classic Sourdough: A Home Baker's Handbook. I even had time to read most of the recipes. And I'm so excited! The possibilities with sourdough's are endless! You can make almost any kind of bread. The book has everything from your classic sourdough to Italian bread to hamburger buns and pretzels! I think I'm going to start off with a starter from New Zealand. Yes, each culture has it's own unique yeasts, bacteria, flavor and personality (how it rises, needs to be fed/baked all that jazz). And yes, the yeasts stay the same, they don't get invaded by local bacteria because the lactobacillus and yeast work together to keep that from happening. So each culture keeps it uniqueness. It's quite fascinating. Why New Zealand you ask? Because it is one of the easiest starters to maintain. I want to try other cultures too, but I think starting out I'll take one that is easier to not screw up!!
But I have good news from that appointment, I'm doing better and my moods are more even. Working out and eating better have greatly helped, but I won't discount that finally getting on the right meds has helped too! He is an awesome psychiatrist and really listens instead of just throwing more meds at you. One of the bad things about these kinds of meds is that they can make you gain weight. I'm on two that can do that. We are taking me off of one of them, but the other one was a key factor in my getting better and I don't want to mess with it. I'd rather be fat and happy than skinny and miserable!! Not that I intend to remain fat. I'm going to try my best to lose this weight.
Fasting glucose this morning is 191!!!! Oh crap! That's not super bad, I don't need to go to the ER or anything, working out will bring it back down, but that means I don't want to know how bad it was last night. We went out to eat Olive Garden and I wanted a dessert. So we had the little mini desserts. But man do they pack a punch. I should have known something was wrong yesterday, it must have been all day, because I kept getting sick feeling after a few minutes of eating. Wednesdays are the days I end up eating out for every meal. I did not do well yesterday. Crap. Well, count that lesson as learned. I can't eat like that on Wednesdays. My body was telling me I was treating it like a dumpster again and not eating right so it felt horrible. I was so sick to my stomach, it reminded me of when I was pregnant. I'm not, but if you got morning sickness, you know what I mean.
Okay, gotta go workout so I can get my blood sugar down, I'll update when I'm done.
Did my entire Beginner's Shred, and about 20 min of cardio. Not feeling good this morning so cutting back on my workout. Blood sugar down to 157, may wait till I'm feeling a bit better and then workout some more to get it down more. According to my Fitbit I only went 0.59 of a mile. Boo. I'm just not feeling good at all. Maybe my stomach thing is not my glucose but a stomach bug? Well, I'll know soon enough!
Why must supplements be so huge? I got some flaxseed oil, which is supposed to be great for you, but it's like a horse-pill! How am I supposed to swallow that?I wish they had pictures of the capsules on the outside with how big they are so I could say no way in the store, not after I get it home! I'm going to try to swallow it though, I was told it was really good for diabetics, for the Omega-3's, 6's and 9's