Weight loss without restriction - day 3
Tuesday, April 12, 2016
And that is how quickly things can slide. Haven't been here because I have been too busy feeling down, watching romcoms instead of working, feeling guilty about it and then deciding that "I just don't care". Whilst those are all harmless words, put together they form a very powerful sentence, and not a good one.
Whilst psych tests may say that I am not severely depressed, I know that things are pretty bad when I say I don't care. Something needs to happen. I need to get out of this hole. But how? I feel trapped, by work and by chores at home, even by the fact that I need to plan our holiday, which is in 6 weeks (flights booked but nothing else sorted), and I can't see a way out at the moment. And the more trapped I feel the more paralysed I am, the worse it gets because jobs pile up more and more until it feels like I am going to suffocate.
Despite all this stuff going in my head I am still trying to do what I need to do in order to lose some weight. Needless to say that the attention on self-love has gone out of the window in the last few days, I shall try to get back to it. I did go to a clothes swap at the weekend and got some nice things, which was cool :). It was really good fun, especially as I went with a friend and it was in the local village so I got to catch up with some acquaintances.
I have started a habit-based program by sean flanagan called weight loss without restriction (http://seanflanaganwellness.c
triction). I have followed some of his advice on changing habits over the last 8 months or so, although not terribly successfully as I always end up trying to tackle several habits at once rather than focussing on one (seems too slow that way!) and end up failing at all of them... so this time, with this program (that cost $7!) I am going to stick to his instructions! ;) So far I am on day 3. It's going ok, not perfect, but I am trying. The first habit I am working on for 2 weeks is to record my hunger/satiety levels before and after each meal, as well as a brief description of what I have eaten. We will see how I go with that. Should help to reduce overeating even more than I already have in the last few years.
Anyway, I'm off, feeling hungry so time to get out my habit booklet and have some food :)