Wednesday, April 20, 2016
I have two big "I SHOIULDS" that have been plaguing my conscience. 1) to do some drawing and 2) to get my body moving. I sit in this power recliner 95% of the day. And it is getting harder and harder to even stand up. This morning I've done 3 or 4 exercises...wall push ups, counter squats and band pull downs. I kind of considered doing them, almost dismissed the idea and then threw laziness and pain to the winds and did a few things. I want to do two more sets ....
I also should think about walking outside on my driveway but think I will pass on that because I am awaiting ankle fusion surgery as my ankles are bone on bone and excruciatingly painful when I take a single step.
When I sit in my recliner, whether it is vertical or reclined I often throughout the day will extend my feet out and make my quads support them. When I was in the hospital recently for another hip replacement surgery, my PT person remarked on the muscular development of my quads. I told her about my practice of extending my legs and she thought it was great. Not too long ago i could not pull myself up ---even using a chair--when I was on the floor. Had to call 911. That was due to steroid myopathy and that does not go away or improve without a lot of work. Thus my attention to my quads.
BUt my arms...my stomach and my back are in bad shape. I am going to ask my husband or daughter to bring my dumbells up from down stairs. And my chair dancing DVDs. Maybe even a beginnner Leslie Sansone. But no, I think that will hurt my ankles too much. So chair dancing it is. That is the only way I will get some cardio in.
I read a blog this morning written by a person (sorry, I forget her name) who lost a great amount of weight and now has a goal of 10 lbs. She said she knew that the only way she could lose it is by checking in and journaling. I like to journal and I write every day in order to exercise my fountain pen collection. Maybe I should really focus on fitness and diet in my writings. And explore the dark regions of "Do i have to?" and "I don't wanna!"
As for drawing? I'm amassing the tools I need and will be ready after this coming weekend to begin to draw. But I'm terrified. To that end I am re-reading an excellent book called "Art and Fear" It is full of commonsense and wisdom. I am also reading some books on drawing...not so much for instruction--but just to whet my whistle and build up my enthusiasm.
My life is very limited by my health. But it needn't be over. I'm not old (relatively speaking)...yes there are things I cannot do...but I should be doing the things that I CAN do. Not putting them off day after day, and ending the evenings with a bad feeling that I did not do all that I could and should.
It's time to break out of this apathetic lethargy and come back to life. Spring is a time of rebirth and renewal. Why can it not be time for me to come to life as well? Not one good reason why not.