We Interrupt this day for a tiny rant...
Monday, April 25, 2016
Confession time: I am focusing way too much on numbers! I KNOW that other things are more important. I just so want to make my goal before my doctor's appointment. I know that it's good to use this desire to have motivation, but I also know that it's ridiculous to think that if I only lose 35 pounds instead of 40 that my Dr. is not going to be impressed.
I tend to be too hard on myself. Especially this weekend when I needed to make a few compromises because we were out of town. Again I stayed in calorie range fine, just had a few more carbs than I would like. And I can tell the difference in my body. And I get so frustrated sometimes that I have to work so much harder because of the stupid PCOS, and then when you combine the anemia and the resultant exhaustion, well it sucks!
Am I the only one who sometimes wants being healthy to also be easy? Not even easy, just not so hard. Sometimes It feels like the deck is stacked against me!
I try to remind myself that it will get easier, that as my weight goes down and there is less stored fat on my body, this equals less stored androgens (male hormone), which means less impact on my insulin and hormone levels, which means my metabolism works better, and I don't have to work five times as hard as I should have to for 1 pound.