What does 21 days active on SparkPeople look like for me?
1) I've completely cut refined sugars and alcohol.
2) My joints feel so much better! My hands used to ache all the time, but I'm thinking that cutting sugar and alcohol has helped with inflammation. I'm a musician, and playing instruments was becoming a problem for me. I thought at 46 years old it would be all down hill from here. Not true, there was a major turn-around. I couldn't be happier about that.
3) My depression has lifted. For about a year and a half, every time I got home from work, I'd close the door, close the curtains, pour a drink or fix a snack, sit on the couch and just...exist... I would avoid any social contact.
I now look back on that sad, sad person and just want to lift her up, give her a big hug, tie her shoes and take her for a quiet walk around the block.
I don't think that feeling better only has to do with just feeling better about my choices, I believe that healthy food, drinking water, walking everyday and being out in the sunshine has turned things around. This is HUGE difference. Everything just feels better.
4) I'm enjoying old hobbies again. The beauty of nature is drawing me again. Because I'm getting off the couch and out there in the world, I'm taking photos and playing the guitar just for fun.
4) I'm not obsessing or ruminating about "what ifs" as much anymore. This is making me a more joyful, carefree wife and mom. Again, I think good fuel and walking has a lot to do with this.
5) The sense of shame is fading. I KNOW I'm still 65 pounds over where I want to be, but I've decided to be happy with simple improvement. Who says you need to wait for a goal weight to enjoy life?
6) I'm caring about little self-care things again. My nails are polished, my floors are mopped, I'm reading challenging books, my brows are shaped, my bed is made, my walking/running gear is ready to go...
7) Oh, yes. The scale shows an 11 pound loss. That's the cherry on top.
I know that my clothes are still a little tight. I'm still obese. If someone were to look at a photo of me right now, they wouldn't think, "Oh, there's a healthy woman."
But I'm on my way, and inside-out, things are looking up.
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