TOXIC SHAME AND SOCIAL, SEXUAL OR EMOTIONAL ANOREXIA
Friday, July 22, 2016
Today I just wanted to post this blog around these topics. I am not sure that I am permitted to post the names of the authors and books here, so I would suggest if my words apply to you, or someone you love who might be afflicted by these things look them up on line.
If you cannot find the information, just drop me a message on my Spark page.
The symptoms can include deep, deep dislike, loathing and even hate of yourself from as far back as you can remember.
Beating yourself up for every little thing that goes wrong thinking it is all your fault.
Believing you are a failure at life, living, relationships and just about anything you touch
Fear of Hell, God, and other assorted deep fears if insecurity, that you deserve to be punished. Guilt, fear and withdrawal from the world are all normal parts of this condition.
It can include agoraphobia, social phobia, becoming a recluse. Fear of people, places and things.
It can lead to physical addiction of all kinds - emotional conditions - depression and others
All things about it are negative. It takes any joy or colour or fun out of life. And is just about one of the most miserable conditions in which to live.
That authors are writing about these conditions from their own experience and the way to recover is wonderful. I am so grateful - for becoming free after a lifetime of being both full of toxic shame and living with anorexia. I tried to cover it up by putting on a mask and pretending I was outgoing and in control of my life - and to all outward appearances I was.
But it was a mask and the second I got home I became real - the terrified, insecure being I was at core. Self hate, self criticism, self abuse in whatever form can all relate back to this self- loathing and punishment of the self.
To anyone who reads these words and understands them. There is help. Please go on line and just put in the words Toxic Shame. There is a simple explanation first and then several other people have now written on the subject.
Blessing to you all.