Made it to 100! Now what?
Saturday, September 10, 2016
Had my weekly weigh-in Friday and finally made it to the hallowed 100 (pounds lost). I was pleased, of course, but since then I've had a vague uneasy sense of something I can't quite put my finger on. It's like slowly wandering through a room full of doors, touching all the knobs and yet not going through any of them.
My current goal weight is 175, so I have 39 more to go. I plan on reevaluating when I get there and decide then if that feels good for me or if I want to look at a lower weight. Nothing below 150, for sure.
I've had trouble making good food choices today, although I haven't struggled with that in a while. We were on the lake all day. I had a sensible breakfast. I packed healthy sandwiches and snacks. We ended up at a local emergency room when DH stuck a fish hook in his hand. After a couple of hours at the hospital I was starving and a little stressed. We went looking for the nearest drive-thru fast food when we were discharged. Normally I get some type of grilled chicken sandwich and throw away the bun, etc. I had no interest in that this time. Cheeseburger and tots.
On the way home this evening, we stopped at a grocery store for a case of bottled water and I went trolling, sniffing around for things I don't usually eat these days. I still had that unsettled feeling. Cheese is one of my favorite foods in the world. I love all kinds and I can consume large quantities at a single setting. Lo and behold, some good medium cheddar cheese was on sale. Check. In the cart. Then I noticed some sea salt and pepper beef jerky on sale and it followed the cheese in the cart. Back in the truck, I split the jerky with DH. Arriving home I immediately cut off a hunk of cheese and down it went.
A major sanity check for me is to log everything I eat, no matter what. I grabbed my notebook after eating the cheese and started writing down what I ate today, leaving nothing out. I looked up the nutritional analysis of the cheeseburger, tots, cheese and jerky and wrote it in my notebook. I don't make a habit of including this information on a regular basis, but when I splurge a little or start slipping, I don't skip it. Very eye opening and great for accountability.
As I mentioned in an earlier blog, I don't treat any food as bad. It's just food. However, for the sake of my health and the weight loss goals I want to achieve, I strive to eat in a way that blesses my body more often than not. Therefore, I'm going to have a conversation with myself shortly and remind me of my goals in a gentle, loving, but firm way.
SP is such a wonderful, safe place to blog, journal and share. We can get concerns off our chest and out of our heads, clearing the way to choose the door that's best for us. I'm going to sit down tomorrow with my coffee, a pen and paper laying out next steps for the final 39. I think I got this. Thanks SP, Spark friends and teams. You make this doable.