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Day 1

Monday, September 19, 2016

I have reached a place that I never thought I would. I have hit 190 pounds. I am so angry at myself. I had reached my goal weight. I had done what I set out to do. But here I am again! I worked so hard to lose the weight to only gain it all back!

I was younger the first go 'round. I am now 42 years old. How am I going to lose the weight?! I have been really good about not focusing on a number on the scale. And won't be...but I saw the number on the scale this morning and reality hit me like a freight train. For me, it has never been the number on the scale! I knew that if my clothes still fit and I felt good about myself, I was ok. But now, my pants are too tight and t-shirts that were once roomy-are no longer! Heck even my body doesn't know how to react to all of this weight. My back is constantly aching and my feet are killing me. If I thought I had reached an all-time low before...it wasn't.

I need friends. Friends who are actively seeking to get healthy. Friends who are looking for support and encouragement...because that is what I need! Spark, Facebook, FitBit....I need to surround myself with the right people! Is there anyone out there in the same boat? just needing a recharge? Or do you know of great active SP groups? Let me know! Anything and everything appreciate at this time!
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  • MBANDI
    hello! one day at a time. that is all we need to focus on emoticon
    smaller, manageable, specific goals and check them off each day!
    i have been rockin the workouts nearly every morning for the last 3 months. it feels great!
    i clearly have to revisit what i am eating because i haven't lost wieght. i am stuck at 185.
    i have lost some inches, maybe 5"
    i like to wake up and get my 30min workout done and then i don't think about it all day!

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    1666 days ago
  • MAZZY0774
    Do we love near each other? I can't remember if you live in Houston, too. BTE, We're the same age.
    1666 days ago
  • REDSKINGIRL
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    1667 days ago
  • WILLFULGIRL1
    I am working diligently to maintain a healthy balanced lifestyle. My most effective strategy has been honest tracking. Every day. Without fail and despite periodic lousy choices.
    1667 days ago
  • MRSCHESNEY
    I'm right there with you, girl. I just turned 40 and was tipping the scale at 181...haven't been that weight since I was pregnant a decade ago. :( It's so easy to gain...not so easy to lose! This is my second week on SP and so far it's great! I've lost 6 pounds so far and I can't believe how friendly and supportive this community is. SP makes it easy to track everything and stay motivated.

    Welcome and good luck!

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    1667 days ago
  • MARTIQTOO
    Been there, done that!! Been on every diet known to man. In June I stopped most flour, sugar and white potatoes. Which worked well, I lost 15 lbs in June. When I realized my problem was in my head is when things clicked. That's when I knew I could!!!
    1667 days ago
  • TIMEFORCINDY
    I've regained some of my weight also but I'm refocused and ready to feel good again; I went on a walk and am charting everything I eat today, I'm taking each day , one day at a time and trying to do good for that day.
    1667 days ago
  • TIFFANYLYNN35
    The last 2 weeks I have lowered my calories and walk at least 5 miles a day plus get 10,000 steps in at work I've lost 15 pounds and couldn't be more proud of myself can't wait for the rest of the fat to go away
    1667 days ago
  • TIFFANYLYNN35
    I was never a person who focused on weight or health which explains why I reached 240# I'm 35 years old and realized I have to be healthier and get focused if not I wouldn't be able to be here to see my children grow up and some day see my gkids so
    1667 days ago
  • DIANAPACK
    As you age you will gain weight eating the same amount of food. Exercise and build muscle, and this will boost your metabolism. Good luck!
    1667 days ago
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