Monday, September 19, 2016
I have reached a place that I never thought I would. I have hit 190 pounds. I am so angry at myself. I had reached my goal weight. I had done what I set out to do. But here I am again! I worked so hard to lose the weight to only gain it all back!
I was younger the first go 'round. I am now 42 years old. How am I going to lose the weight?! I have been really good about not focusing on a number on the scale. And won't be...but I saw the number on the scale this morning and reality hit me like a freight train. For me, it has never been the number on the scale! I knew that if my clothes still fit and I felt good about myself, I was ok. But now, my pants are too tight and t-shirts that were once roomy-are no longer! Heck even my body doesn't know how to react to all of this weight. My back is constantly aching and my feet are killing me. If I thought I had reached an all-time low before...it wasn't.
I need friends. Friends who are actively seeking to get healthy. Friends who are looking for support and encouragement...because that is what I need! Spark, Facebook, FitBit....I need to surround myself with the right people! Is there anyone out there in the same boat? just needing a recharge? Or do you know of great active SP groups? Let me know! Anything and everything appreciate at this time!