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Thursday, October 20, 2016

Yesterday I weighed myself..... ( I know....after this I will weigh myself weekly. ) I wanted to see if the inexplicable one extra pound had gone away. And yes it had! I struggled all day yesterday with wanting something sweet....a Symphony bar is my favorite. That or some ice cream....is where my head was at. I compromised by making my favorite comfort food: Pasta (whole wheat) with butter (real) and parmesan shreds (also real). I did feel guilty about the poor nutritional value of the meal so I tossed in a half a package of mixed frozen veggies. It was delicious. And I ate too much because I was uncomfortably full afterward. I do think my stomach has been shrinking. I can only eat a half of a bagel now rather than the whole thing. I love that.

So, because there wasn't a single treat-like thing in the house, I made it through the day without stumbling over a quart of ice cream. LOL. Now this morning I may be going to a restaurant (Perkins) for breakfast. I will have to watch myself because it would be easy to order a stack of pancakes, loaded with syrup and butter....and gorge myself. I need to decide ahead of time what to eat. I'm thinking one pumpkin pancake and some scrambled eggs. That way I do get a bit of a treat without going hog wild.

I've begun to think about Christmas shopping. I know it's only October but I will need to spread the expense between these three months. Today I made out my list of people to buy for and actually did make one purchase this morning on Amazon. I really wish I could go out to the stores and do some real shopping rather than virtual shopping. I miss that, I think, more than most of the things that this disease (PsA) has robbed from me. I haven't been to a mall in years....and to very few stores...and then, only a fast in and out before pain and strength make shopping any more impossible. At Christmas time stores have an added ambience --and added crowds. You can usually find better buys when buying in person because you are able to scout the sales. I think stores are having to find ways of attracting customers instead of losing the business to Amazon et al.

For the past two or three years we have not decorated our house at Christmas time. I HATE that....it really robs you of the Christmas spirit. There is magic in a decorated tree and wreaths on the door. Maybe my daughter and her boyfriend will help me decorate. Last year they decorated my parents' tree. Having my parents' house decorated did add a special glow to our Christmas Eve celebration there....especially when contrasted to our barren living room at home.

I also miss baking cookies and other Christmas treats. :( I really need to switch directions here. I need to focus on what I DO have rather than on what I've lost. I have a home and am not living on the street. We have more than enough food to eat. Our house is not flooded or buried in mud as are so many in the SE USA. I will be able to go to my parents' house and celebrate with them....They are both still alive, although mom's health has been really terrible of late, so I'm especially grateful for any time I spend with them. I have a beautiful daughter who loves me...and a good relationship with the man she is seeing. I do have much more than do many people do and I'm very grateful for that. God has been good to me. So please forgive me for complaining.

Well I wish for each of you (including myself) a day full of wise choices and a good measure of self control as well as much joy at seeing goals met and old vices conquered.

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  • _LINDA
    I have never decorated my apartment for Christmas and Mom hasn't had a tree in years. Instead, she is making do with electronic trees -cute little tress that light up and change colors - a set of three ranging from a foot down to six inches, really kind of nice and decorative, and no fuss and no mess. She had one of those optical ones too which is really pretty. She likes decorations, both traditional and lights, but not overdone. I think she mostly does the lights for my benefit. When I was at Jysk there was this tree on sale that you plug into your computer and its only 4 inches tall so doesn't take up much space and changes colors, looking great on my desktop. Maybe you should consider getting one of those, just for yourself. Most are battery operated. I have always liked lights and used to have strings of them all over my apartment year round until I moved into this small one and had to get rid of a lot of stuff that simply didn't fit. I miss my sparkly lights, but I do have two rotating ball lights that I work out with when I do music videos -disco ball throwback! I only get things on sale. but unlike you, I dislike shopping, but am not interested in online -I have to see what I buy. Quite frankly, you are better off not cooking treats, no one needs them, although I suppose you might want to help out your church if they do those. Mom wasn't a baker. Muffins was all she did. She would buy a pie for a rare treat. Maybe that is why I am not into sweets, instead favoring salty snacks.
    Keep on being amazing -you got this!
    1431 days ago
    We really do need to count our blessings,no matter how small they are.This
    time of year those comfort foods certainly do call to us!Love how our tummys
    shrink and we can't eat the way we use to.Think before we put food in our
    mouths am i hungry or what is the main reason i am eating? emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1432 days ago
  • no profile photo ELRIDDICK
    Thanks for sharing
    1432 days ago
    Yes, wise choices are the
    1432 days ago
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