Day 83/ New Hope
Wednesday, December 21, 2016
After the conversation with DH last night (see yesterday's DH's New Groove post) I didn't think it would be possible to fall asleep I was so wound up, but I did. I slept beautifully till the AM then tossed and turned. I'm so tired. Tired of being in pain and not getting enough sleep. But I did sleep better than I have for most of the 3 weeks this pain has been going on, so that is good! I went to sleep with dreams of DH and I getting in shape and going hiking with a service dog by my side.
I found this picture yesterday and it describes anxiety perfectly.
Hope you can see it. I deal with this daily, no amount of rationalizing works. My therapist actually has me taking pictures on my phone of the things that give me anxiety like that so that I can just look at the picture and be reminded that yes, I did turn that stove off, or lock the door or whatever it may be. It helps, some. So I guess whatever works. I'm doing better and worse, all at once. I guess that's just the way these things go though.
I have found new hope in the future after working on my goals and my conversation with DH. I was in such a rut before. Losing this first 49 pounds was the best, most amazing thing I could have done for myself! It has given me hope. I never thought I could lose this much weight. I had figured I would be overweight for the rest of my life and resigned myself to that. Getting on this program and getting started on the weight loss has opened so many doors for me. I know I'm not done, I still have a long way to go, but look how far I've come! I made it 1/3 of the way to my goal weight! I'm making plans to go, not just hiking, but on overnight hikes! To run a 5K (if my hiking training will allow). So many things! Don't worry I'm pacing myself. I'm making sure to have plenty of time to train and not setting expectations that are impossible. Baby steps are key.
I hope you have a wonderful Wednesday and remember to reach for your dreams, they are possible!!