Trying so hard
Tuesday, February 14, 2017
I went 4 years, in my current job, without any type of write up. I have received 2 write ups in the past 2 months. And now... apparently I am no longer allowed to do my homework at work. Before you all say, "homework is for home" let me tell you that first, I have done my homework at work since I have been in school (2013) and second I work a desk job on a midnight shift. There is NOTHING going on in the wee hours of the morning. I work in my office, by myself. So I can't see what the harm in me getting my homework done at work causes. I have a 2 year old at home. My current routine is that I come home at 6am, go to bed, and I'll usually get up around 2 or 3pm and spend the rest of my time, before work at 6pm, with my family. I will now have to spend that spare time trying to get my homework done. And my cousin is currently living with me, which means that my office has been moved to the dining room, so I have to try and get homework done with the distractions of the tv, my 2 year old son wanting to play with mommy and not understanding why mommy can't, and my husband doing stuff around the house. It is getting really frustrating around here. There's a lot more to it than just this issue, but I am thinking about giving them what they want and throwing in the towel. I have no idea what I have done to someone to make them so angry with me that it seems like they turn around and tell on me ALL the time now. Like I said, I haven't had a write up in 4 years and suddenly I have 2 in 2 months. One I don't agree with, the other I am guilty of but what I did was done without any malicious intent behind it. And it wasn't something life threatening or career crushing, in case you're wondering. I violated a policy, not purposely though.
I feel I should also tell you guys that I am not one of those "woe is me, everyone hates me" kind of person. I am very well like at my job. You can ask anyone here who the best dispatcher is and they'll tell you me or one of my other co-workers. In fact, I have one officer pick his shift according to what dispatcher he was going to get, and that was me. He specifically scheduled his shift around me because I am damn good at what I do. However, I have suddenly caught the attention of someone who clearly does not like me. I have no idea who it is or what I did to them. Maybe I didn't do anything. Maybe I'm too good at my job and they're jealous. Maybe they are just a miserable person who suddenly decided to act on something. I can tell you that I am the only one being attacked. None of my fellow co-workers are being complained against, just me. So... I have started looking at other universities to go to. Oh, I should also mention that I work at a University and the only reason I have stayed where I am for so long is because I get to go to school for free. I have been going since they implemented the program in 2013. I am only allowed to take up to 4 classes at a time (which is why I have not graduated yet) and I am not projected to graduate until Spring of 2019. That is another 2 years here. I am not sure I can take that. So I am trying to weigh all my options. My degree is in accounting so maybe, as one co-worker tonight suggested, I can find an agency willing to take me on and help me finish my degree. Maybe I can stick it out here a little longer and get an intern somewhere and they'll help me get my degree, maybe I should just rely on financial aid and go to another university. I have been looking at University of Phoenix, as I know they offer mostly online degrees, which is beneficial for me because I work full time and have a 2 year old at home.
I don't know. I just have so much on my plate right now and this seems to be pushing me over the edge. All the crap that I have taken in the past few months (I should mention we have a new administration) is starting to weigh on me. Talk about stress eating!