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Trying so hard

Tuesday, February 14, 2017

I went 4 years, in my current job, without any type of write up. I have received 2 write ups in the past 2 months. And now... apparently I am no longer allowed to do my homework at work. Before you all say, "homework is for home" let me tell you that first, I have done my homework at work since I have been in school (2013) and second I work a desk job on a midnight shift. There is NOTHING going on in the wee hours of the morning. I work in my office, by myself. So I can't see what the harm in me getting my homework done at work causes. I have a 2 year old at home. My current routine is that I come home at 6am, go to bed, and I'll usually get up around 2 or 3pm and spend the rest of my time, before work at 6pm, with my family. I will now have to spend that spare time trying to get my homework done. And my cousin is currently living with me, which means that my office has been moved to the dining room, so I have to try and get homework done with the distractions of the tv, my 2 year old son wanting to play with mommy and not understanding why mommy can't, and my husband doing stuff around the house. It is getting really frustrating around here. There's a lot more to it than just this issue, but I am thinking about giving them what they want and throwing in the towel. I have no idea what I have done to someone to make them so angry with me that it seems like they turn around and tell on me ALL the time now. Like I said, I haven't had a write up in 4 years and suddenly I have 2 in 2 months. One I don't agree with, the other I am guilty of but what I did was done without any malicious intent behind it. And it wasn't something life threatening or career crushing, in case you're wondering. I violated a policy, not purposely though.
I feel I should also tell you guys that I am not one of those "woe is me, everyone hates me" kind of person. I am very well like at my job. You can ask anyone here who the best dispatcher is and they'll tell you me or one of my other co-workers. In fact, I have one officer pick his shift according to what dispatcher he was going to get, and that was me. He specifically scheduled his shift around me because I am damn good at what I do. However, I have suddenly caught the attention of someone who clearly does not like me. I have no idea who it is or what I did to them. Maybe I didn't do anything. Maybe I'm too good at my job and they're jealous. Maybe they are just a miserable person who suddenly decided to act on something. I can tell you that I am the only one being attacked. None of my fellow co-workers are being complained against, just me. So... I have started looking at other universities to go to. Oh, I should also mention that I work at a University and the only reason I have stayed where I am for so long is because I get to go to school for free. I have been going since they implemented the program in 2013. I am only allowed to take up to 4 classes at a time (which is why I have not graduated yet) and I am not projected to graduate until Spring of 2019. That is another 2 years here. I am not sure I can take that. So I am trying to weigh all my options. My degree is in accounting so maybe, as one co-worker tonight suggested, I can find an agency willing to take me on and help me finish my degree. Maybe I can stick it out here a little longer and get an intern somewhere and they'll help me get my degree, maybe I should just rely on financial aid and go to another university. I have been looking at University of Phoenix, as I know they offer mostly online degrees, which is beneficial for me because I work full time and have a 2 year old at home.
I don't know. I just have so much on my plate right now and this seems to be pushing me over the edge. All the crap that I have taken in the past few months (I should mention we have a new administration) is starting to weigh on me. Talk about stress eating!
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  • BLUEJAY1969
    I have to agree with what SHORTSTORY2 has to say! Find out what is going on with your work before you make any moves to quit. I mean if you are so miserable you are going to quit, you might as well push back a bit and see who is stirring the pot! Insist on it if you must. Read the rights that you have as an employee and you will have that to back you up. I let someone run me out of a VERY lucrative job once simply because she decided from the very beginning that she didn't like me and was going to humiliate and ruin me. I backed down and left instead of fighting for my rights. I regret that I didn't fight even though I later knew that I never would have been happy there. I hope that you find answers and find the right thing to do for yourself!
    1471 days ago
  • NMUTT71
    Have you looked into getting a job with the State of Florida? They offer tuition waivers for any FL school that accepts them so you can take up to 6 credit hours a semester. That is how I got my degree.

    1471 days ago
  • no profile photo CD14402600
    Do you think talking with the management about the whole thing would help? Find out what exactly is making you get write ups. Explain your home situation. It has to be so frustrating for someone to be complaining about you behind your back. We had a similar situation here in the community we live in. Before we even had our house brought in people were complaining about us. Then we got in trouble for parking our car in front of our house when we were coming by during the day. We didn't have permission to live in it yet so we weren't there all day. I really believe we were targeted since other people park on the street all the time. It really hurts to be the one people choose to beat on when you are just trying to do your job. Don't make any major decisions on your own. Get the whole picture first and then talk to your husband about it. Be sure to pray too. I'm so sorry you are going through all this. It's just not right!
    1471 days ago
  • EISSA7
    Think longgg and hard before you leave a job that you are good at AND get free college!! Keep your eyes on your goal and you will figure out what the best fit is for your particular needs. Good luck!
    1471 days ago
  • RITA1956
    One thing at a time & one day at a time. Make a list of ultimate goals. Figure out how best to get to those goals. Free classes sound nice.Maybe your cousin needs a new home unless you benefit more him staying.Be glad you got to do homework that long
    1471 days ago
    You certainly have a lot on your plate. All I can tell you is that you have to do what is right for you and your son. Best of luck to you
    1471 days ago
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