Wednesday, March 01, 2017
I stopped counting calories. I stopped exercising. I have no desire to exercise. I'm eating sugar again. I'm eating carbs again. I gained about 20 pounds since early November. I'm moderately depressed. But I just make such a delicious alfredo sauce. My son loves it. I've been struggling financially. It's not as easy to eat healthy when you don't have as much money. The food bank offers Bagels, and free pastries. I haven't been even using my spark app or even trying to count calories. My jeans are tight. I can't afford to join the gym. Even if I could I would probably just walk on the treadmill. I remind myself that if I lost 20 pounds once I can do it again. And then I tell myself I will start counting calories tomorrow. I will have oatmeal for breakfast tomorrow. I will start eating salads for lunch again tomorrow. I will pay attention to my portions tomorrow. But right now I will eat a bagel with cream cheese. I will have macaroni and cheese for lunch. I will help myself two seconds at dinner. My best friend gave me chocolates. I think I'll have a few of those. Maybe I'll exercise and count calories tomorrow but right now I have to call my Senator and tell them how outraged I am all the things the Trump Administration is doing. Tonight I will watch a movie and knit well I eat chocolate and feel overwhelmed by my incredibly long overbearing list of things to do. And right now I'm going to drink my coffee and enjoy a chocolate truffle before I start making phone calls and working on my to-do list for the day. There's always tomorrow.