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Discouragement or Motivation: It's a Fine Line

Tuesday, April 04, 2017

I went to the doctor the other day, seems that I gained 7 of the 15 pounds I lost. Extremely discouraging. Under a lot of stress so I am trying to stay positive about it. But, other things went on yesterday that were discouraging as well. Things in my personal life. Motivation is everywhere I look but, dang it, I am too blind to see it. I feel like I never have enough time in the day. I go to bed at night thinking about all the ways I want to exercise the next day and I never do it. Why? Laziness? Fear of change? The pain I get from working out? And I don't just mean normal workout pain, because of my weight, my knees are starting to give, my right heel kills me every morning when I wake up, my plantar factitious sucks, and I hate, absolutely hate, feeling out of breath when I workout. But then I list all the things I hate about not working out... Being out of breath just getting out of bed, my knees hurting because of my weight, my heel hurting because of my weight, the difficulty I have getting up off the ground when I sit down to play with my son. It is EMBARRASSING!
You know, I started therapy not long ago and kind of discovered why I am the way I am. I mean, I've always been big, but it wasn't until something horrific happened to me that I just blew up. I am letting that one moment control my whole life and I had no idea. I am DONE being fat. I am DONE being out of breath. I am DONE hurting.
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    Is there any chance your gain is muscle? I always do the same thing because I start to "reward" myself. Keep it up, You know how to lose so make up your mind and do it. Keep pushing. Your team is here for you. We love you. emoticon Go April!!!! emoticon
    1406 days ago
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    I can't lose weight either lately. It is very frustrating and frustrating. Discouraging---can I come up with more negatives!!! My heart goes out to you. Sometimes I think I'm going to be overweight the rest of my life, but I have to find the desire to keep going. I hope you can too. Try taking things slower. Work with your pain instead of against it. Chair exercises might be helpful as someone else suggested. Making small changes works better since our bad habits didn't come over night and the good ones won't either. Don't give up. Just take it slowly a day at a time. One pound at a time. Wishing you the best!
    1410 days ago
    Our past can affect how we act today. Understanding that you are not what happened to you is very important. To ease your foot pain do this: when you first wake stretch your legs and feet while in bed. Get up and place foot against wall so toes are up the wall. Lean forward stretching out the foot and lower leg. Do other foot. Now you can go to the bathroom, etc. It is important to do this BEFORE walking around. I'm here as a friend if you want.
    1422 days ago
  • NMUTT71
    Identifying the root cause is the first step. Working through it with your therapist is very important so you can break the hold it has on you. Praying for you and your family April.
    1425 days ago
  • BLUEJAY1969
    Have you considered trying chair workouts? I hated and I mean *hated* everything about exercise until I tried chair workouts!! Those I love. I have several DVD's that are terrific by Stronger Seniors and you get out of them what you put into them. They strengthen your back, core, knees, you name it! The trainer on there Anne Burnell is easy to follow and the music is not so loud that you can't hear the instructions over it! If you can't afford DVD's they have plenty of chair workouts here on SP that you can do! I hope that this helps somehow!
    1425 days ago
    I know how easy it is to let one horrific incident define you. Good luck breaking the cycle
    1425 days ago
    This isn't an easy journey but it it worth taking
    1425 days ago
    I liked your blog. Thank you for sharing.
    1425 days ago
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