It's 3 AM
Friday, April 07, 2017
Okay, I waited a while to write the blog so it's actually 3:52 AM. I got the song "3 AM" by Matchbox 20 in my head. I generally try to stay away from social media this time of night because who knows if I'm awake enough to actually write coherently. Spell check is my friend this time of night! But tonight is a little different.
This is week 5 out of the hospital, week 4 of only getting 2-3 hours of sleep a night, 4 hours on a really good night. I try to nap. I'll lay there and daydream and get comfortable, but no real sleep comes. I stayed in bed tonight from 11 PM to 2 AM trying to sleep. Came close a couple of times, but a noise would keep me awake (usually me starting to snore, LOL). So, no sleep tonight. We are worried about my mental health again at this point. That is not enough sleep. And not enough sleep when you have mental illnesses, as I do, can lead to some Very Bad Things.
So what do you do at 3 AM? All the things you didn't have time to do during the day. Or if that is too noisy play video games or browse the internet. Pinterest is a favorite of mine. I'm in love with the fashion 'Mori Girl' and 'Shabby Chic'. Well, some of it, some is too much for me. I'm learning to sew, well, watching videos on how to sew. I'm learning how to crochet/sew a horse bonnet for horses for one of my students in my crochet class, that is what she wants to do. I'm cleaning, what I can clean and not be too noisy. I daydream. I get old 80's songs stuck in my head. Or old (can't believe it's old now!) 90's songs. I wonder if penguins really do have knees.
I'm going to go off and do some cleaning now, it's 4:18 so maybe another hour and I'll try to get some sleep. Maybe. Sweet dreams everyone!