Good Friday, Easter and other Holidays and Sundays
Friday, April 14, 2017
Today is Good Friday but it does not feel like a good day today even though it is warmer a little.
First because before we used to celebrate it at our first church; the second one did not have a service. It feels wrong because we are still grieving and we know we will not see our pet again. But we are thankful to God for allowing us to be the caretakers of her and giving us such a warm and loving dog. Also in a few weeks it will be the 22nd and if my husband was still living it would be our 40th anniversary. I know that I will see him in heaven and we had 28 good years together. He would be sad to know that our family is split and that we were separated from our friends before and had to leave our first church where Jennifer was dedicated at.
So yes I feel like someone else who blogged about Easter. Holidays and even Sundays are not the same anymore. How can they be when we are by ourselves and we do not get to church on Sundays anymore. Harder even to stay close to God when we are not with others and find it hard to pray. I want to be able to rejoice because of the Resurrection but find myself lost in this fog of grief and depression and sadness. The only good thing happening is that on the 22nd our friends have invited us over to their house. I do not know if we will see the other woman who caused the division in the first place.