Sorry this blog is more about drama that is going on in my life than it is about fitness. The fitness stuff is at the end. So if you don't care to read about drama, skip this blog. I hate drama, but I gotta get this out!!
So I finally sent a message to my 'friend' C.... our husband's are meeting next week, at her husband's request. Did I take a turn at the wrong century? I'm trying to figure out what to do, I don't want her to bother my husband with her drama. Geez. This is so strange. I feel like I'm in an episode of the twilight zone. I'd care more, but I have a migraine and it's hard to care about anything else when you have one of those
I wrote that last night during all the drama. I'm still really confused as to why our husbands are meeting and I told my husband that as a fully grown woman I am against them meeting to discuss our relationship. I will handle it, I just have to stop being nice and say what I need to say to her. He says he totally agrees and says that her husband 'A' has a totally different conversation coming his way and if A thinks that he is going to talk about our relationship he is dead wrong because he is not going to get in between our relationship. I told him thank you because this whole thing makes me think we are before women's rights and everything. I'm so frustrated with her for everything. And everything I try to type to her comes out mean as all get out. I'm not going to call because I have severe anxiety about calling on the phone and nothing I need to say will come out right and I'll end up still friends with her. I don't want that.
I'm trying really hard, but when things get this drama loaded... It reminds me of my family. My family would do this crap too, and I'm freezing up because they always won. I'm freezing up because that's what I've always done. I can't do this. I have to speak up. I won't call because that will go all wrong and I'll have a panic attack. I've been wronged so much it is hard for me to be anything but kind...
But this is one situation where I can't be kind. I hate it. I should have taken DH's advice and just ignored her, but the last person that did that (she told me about this) C literally hunted her down, called her and demanded to know what was going on. So this conversation was coming whether I wanted it to or not, I just get to set the time and setting this way. I'm not good with confrontational people at all. I shut down. My emotions, I mean. My family was very confrontational, in a very bad way, and I hate that I still don't do good with confrontation.
Okay, enough of that. I slept a little longer yesterday night but still spent the time watching my classes and working out, it was so nice!! I was so stressed last night I got a full night's sleep! I slept from 8 PM to 4:30 AM!!! That's 8 1/2 hours of sleep, baby!! I feel like crap this morning, but that could be the migraine. I'm drinking some caffeine (coffee) to help it go away some and taking excedrin (it's the only thing my pharmacist could say I could take with the meds I'm on). Hopefully it will go away in time for me to work out in an hour. I need to work out to destress. Seriously. So I still have time to watch a class, and then work out, or play on SP for a while
I can't tell what I like better, getting a full night's sleep or doing all the things I do in the middle of the night...
Right now I think I'd rather watch my videos and stuff. It's fun and educational... and I never get a chance to watch them during the day. I think I just need to change that and make time to watch them. I need my sleep.
I worked out for 37 minutes yesterday! I think I'm getting shin splints, so lots of pauses to stretch and to not overdo it. I don't want shin splints! Been there, done that, didn't want the t-shirt!!! I'm aiming for a whole hour today, split into two sessions. I think I can do it.
I emotional ate yesterday. A lot. I hate when I do that. But, all I can do is move on from here, and that is what I'm doing. 2 more pounds gained and I'll be back up to 250 and I don't want that. So I'm going to eat healthy and exercise more and get this weight off! I can do it if I just work hard and don't slip into emotional eating again! That is going to be hard because I have to finish what I started and say goodbye in a permanent way to C, but I can do it! I know I can!
LOL, I had to delete one of the pictures b/c SP says no profanity on their blogs. I don't normally use cuss words, so I don't mind, but I found it nifty and refreshing that they don't allow swear words on their blogs. Nifty!
Thank you for stopping by my blog and 'listening' to all my drama - or skipping to the end for the exercise stuff. I swear I don't normally have this much drama in my life, my life is normally a drama free zone and I like it that way!!
Hope you have a fantastic Friday and a great weekend!