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Catching Up and My Life Story

Saturday, April 29, 2017

Well I am scheduled to have a colonsocopy on May 10th,. That is the day of my husband's birthday and the day in June when I get my first Social Security check. The new gastroenterologist thinks it is some microbiological thing or diverticulitis causing my problems so he wants to take so,e biopsies and find out. I have to be on a special diet a week before the procedure. Meaning I cannot eat more 2 servings of veggies and no more than 3 of fruit. I can have no more than 2 cups of milk or dairy products and no grain or whole wheat products either. I can have no chocolate, nuts, or beans and no calciferous veggies. It is going to be hard and rather boring or bland.

My birthday lands on Mother's Day this year so I plan on having Schwans ancient encrusted cod with a side dish and veggies on that day and maybe a special dessert too. It seems that our neighbor's wife is getting to the end now. I seen a big van by her house from Bellin earlier.
I think they delivered a special; bed for her in her final days..

Looking back on my life I have had some hard things happen to me before. Losing my husband was one of the worst days of my life. Before that I lost his mother and father before my daughter was born. She almost died at home and was revived for a few minutes by the rescue squad people but told them to let her go; she was ready to die. My husband died at home in the bathroom of a heart attack. Both times the rescue squad or ambulance was called. That is why my daughter thinks of the sirens as death howls.

Through it all I had our friends to help and support us through his mothers and his death. Now after losing our dog they are gone. The other woman who we once considered our friend poisoned them against us. all because I wrote a letter explaining how we felt about what was going on and I spoke it in a loving way. The one guy I knew before my daughter was born and I met is soon to be wife then after our daughter was born . We went to their wedding which was 3 years after ours. My husband saved his life years ago when he got caught up in a manure spreader. He would have died if it were not for my husband coming when he did. He took him to the hospital and we helped take care of his cows until he got better. It hurts to have then all turn their backs on us now.

Last thing, I also am scheduled to see a neurologist and have a test dune to see if and where my neuropathy is.Not something I am looking forward to at all.
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    It's really hard being reminded of the major losses and tough stuff. emoticon

    emoticon Praying for you and health issues. Colonoscopy is no fun, but I do think the prep has improved a little from the last time I had one.

    1193 days ago
    1196 days ago
    emoticon I am sorry you're having these medical issues Laura and I hope and pray all will be well.
    Losing good friends is hard to bear, a very dear friend of ours has let us (or rather himself) down very badly and has shown his true colour. We will not let someone get that close to us again to rip us off. Lesson learnt, we have deleted his number and address from our book as he's also hurt 2 other of our friends in the process.
    1197 days ago
  • FROSTY99
    It is harBd to lose those you think of as good friends. I experienced something similar after my 1st DH passed away. My very best friend from 1st grade on wasn't there to support me. She who was godmother to my older son just gone and with she & her DH went most of our other friends. They had slowly drifted away as he was ill for 9 yrs and we were unable to participate in many activities.

    Like you, I was hurt and felt like they all deserted me in my hour of need but I took a couple of college classes that helped me deal with my feelings. I finally accepted that I had to move on with my life for my own good and made new friends. People come and go in our lives and we never know how long they will be a part of our lives but when their season ends, God has a reason for that and we have to accept it and move on.

    May you find the peace you need.
    1197 days ago
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