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Day 14 of 56

Wednesday, May 31, 2017

Yesterday, I had so much anxiety from oldest DD leaving for camp and then I got a migraine, I had no energy to speak of, not even with Thrive. Just goes to show that it is not a 'miracle cure' (and I didn't think it was) your body can still do things that cause you to be down. I still love it. I know that the anxiety and migraine were to blame for my crash in energy, plus... I anxiety ate. I ate a lot. I should not have, but anxiety eating is hard to stop doing once you start. And I was so anxious, even the meds didn't bring it down much. I didn't work out because of the migraine, I caught it before it got bad, because of the aura, but I had the aches and skin sensitivity.

Having just one kiddo around is hard, she expects me to entertain her. I warned her that if she stayed home we would be doing a lot of cleaning, and I still intend to do so, just not as much because this is the only time I have with just her so we'll do fun thing too, just me and her. Yesterday we went to her favorite restaurant, today if it does not rain we will go get her some ice cream, tomorrow we are going as a family out to eat at a nice restaurant.

Thrive working, got energy to spare, which is good because today I'll need it! Got lots planned. Though even with all of this energy, what I really want to do is go back to bed!! It's mental thing not a physical one. Physically I have plenty of energy and am ready to go. Mentally I want to crawl back in bed with dH and take a nap. I have therapy today and I know it is going to be a draining one because of all that has been going on with my PTSD and depression and such.

It's been an R.E.M kind of week, that is mostly what I've been listening to. "She's a sad tomato, she's three miles of bad roads..." LOL

Still so excited to clean out my closets and have nice closets I can walk into!! I want to start now! But I don't want to disappoint little bit and not spend as much time with her. I have to think of things we can do together other than games and going out to eat. Yesterday I watched a movie with her and today she wants me to play outside with her. So totally can do that!! But still going to work on one of the closets this week. I want to get it at least halfway done this week. Lots of stuff in there, it is going to be difficult to do and take a while. So grateful our landlord has given us 90 days!!

Speaking of it is Wednesday, weigh in day! Off I go - 259 emoticon up one pound, but the last two days I have eaten extra from binge eating and emotional eating and I have not tracked it all (mainly because I did not remember it all. So no ice cream for me when we go to the ice cream place. She wants the dinosaur one with the dinosaur cookie on top, lol. So, to watch what I'm eating, track every bite, plan ahead and work out!!!

Off to therapy, thanks for stopping by! I know today's writings were kinda jumbled, that is how I feel, all jumbled up.
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  • IAMSUNNYHOWARD
    emoticon You got this! Like me, it may not be in the place you want it to be, but it is there! LOL
    994 days ago
  • JIBBIE49
    I know that people do things for whatever reason, but I would have found a "day camp" for the oldest DD to attend and not had a migraine over it, but that would have been my decision. Our local college offers lots of weekly "summer day camps" (UWF) for high school age students. The "State College" has a full program for ages 6-12.
    994 days ago
  • NEPTUNE1939
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  • P61763
    You can do it
    994 days ago
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