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Crisis of Faith or Lack of faith in myself?

Saturday, June 03, 2017

Lately I have been super depressed. My husband has been trying to get me to let go and let God, but I am having a very hard time letting go of my imaginary control on life. I recently started back on my meds (I take Celexa) but they don't seem to be helping this time around. I cry at the drop of a hat. I don't know if I am having a crisis of faith or if I'm losing faith in myself. But losing faith in myself would mean that I had to first have faith in myself and I don't think I've ever had that. I thought that I would be able to relax a little now the school semester is over and I passed all my classes, but no such luck. I feel overwhelmed with life. Maybe I'm just being a whiner. I don't know. All I do know for sure is that something isn't right and I can't put my finger on it. Will most likely talk to my doctor about either changing meds or adding to it. I need to spend more time with God but there just doesn't seem to be enough time in the day. There are so many things I want to do that involve my faith but because I never grew up with it, I always forget. For instance, I want to start saying prayers with my son before he goes to bed and I want to pray before we eat. I always forget until after and then feel crappy for not sharing those things with my son. He's only 2 but... Anyway, I just needed to vent and get this off my chest. I hope that I can figure out what's going on because it's putting a strain on a lot of my relationships, especially with my husband.
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  • NMUTT71
    You can do this. I don't spend nearly the time I should or want too in the Word and I often beat myself up about it but I never have anything on my car stereo except Christian Music so I can worship on my way to and from work. Even just that little bit helps with my faith walk. We have instilled mealtime prayers and it's been a long time coming but my kids will remind me when I forget now. Often times they are just prayers that I learned from my grandmother and not something original but I try to always do it. It takes time to instill the habit though so give yourself the time to do it. You can get through this. I know you can!
    1353 days ago
    Put your favorite chritsian music on your phone/ iPod and listen while doing house work. Many songs are actually prayers. One of my favorites is "Need You Now" by Plumb I sing along praying the whole time.
    1361 days ago
    April.... there is ALWAYS time for God. Add the Bible app to your phone and before your feet hit the ground or you do anything else read a verse or a chapter of the Psalms. They will remind you that God is in control without wearing on your already frail emotions. We have all been there so before you think you are different, weird or even in depression, honestly I think it's a matter of the toll this world puts on us with so many responsibilities and no matter how hard we try to simplify, sometimes they all come crashing together at once. Every 3 to 6 months I feel the same thing but then they pass. Hang in there. Saying a prayer and put on the armor of GOD. Literally pull that out, flag it and every morning if nothing else read through it and go through the motions. It helps to fight Satan. Come on girl ~ you got this!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1362 days ago
  • MOTIVATED36732
    Agree talking with someone sympathetic would be helpful. Also to develop the habits we want takes time and consistency so go easy on yourself. One day at a time.
    1362 days ago
    I think you are very wise to talk to your doctor and make sure your physical health is being taken care of first. Also, give yourself a break. Having faith doesn't mean perfect behavior. You DO have faith, it just takes practice.
    1362 days ago
    Stop and take a deep breath. Find a sympathetic soul with whom you can discuss these feelings and who will not be judgmental. What you need is someone to talk to and not hold all of this balled up inside you. What you do not need is a judgmental person whose response is, "If you just did things like I do everything will be ok".

    Keep on Keeping on!

    Make today the greatest day of your life!
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    “The more intensely we feel about an idea or a goal, the more assuredly the idea, buried deep in our subconscious, will direct us along the path to its fulfillment.”
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    1362 days ago
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