I took my sleep aid, told DH I was going to bed, and he told me the food wasn't ready (he was smoking a pork shoulder) and food prep wasn't done. So I stayed up, kept him company, and helped as I could - and totally missed my window for my sleep aid. I know I slept at some point after 0330, because I had a dream, but I was up by 0500. I can't say wide awake, I was dragging and thought my supplements would wake me, but apparently you need more sleep than I had for it to work. I'm exhausted, I laid down for a while, but could not sleep, just tossed and turned. *sigh*
I'm challenging myself to speak more softly, like I used to before I had kids. One of the things DH used to tell me he liked about me was my soft voice. I've becoming Yelling Mom. I don't want to be Yelling Mom, but it seems like when whenever I tell the kids to stop something they don't listen unless I yell it. I've decided that I'm going to speak softly unless the moment requires me to speak more loudly, but not yell, just use my Stern Voice. I hate that I've become that loud Yelling Mom. I'm not Couch Yelling Mom, I actually get up and Go, but I do yell more than needed when I get irritated or they don't listen. So, the challenge: speak softly, no yelling. I may speak sternly, but if I have to say stop more than once or twice, and they don't listen, they are grounded from electronics for the rest of the day, unless it is late, then they are also grounded for the next day. Keep track on my calendar of how long they are grounded for. If I HAVE to yell, they are grounded for two days. If I yell without reason, I put money in my Yelling Jar. I have no cash right now, so I'll use the gold pirate gold I used to use as rewards for the kids. Probably a quarter a yell, because we are in super saving mode and I don't have the money to do more than that.
I'm feeling a little better now. DH got home and I told him what all is going on that is contributing to me being so tired. I just started my time of month, I have a toothache, I got maybe and hour sleep... and a few other things are all going on right now that my getting almost no sleep did not help. So he told me to just lay down and rest some, so I did, and I think I fell asleep for a minute, so I feel a little better now... at the end of the day, lol. No working out today. I'm going to do the challenge for my team though, don't want to miss a day of that.
Found this on my memories on FB, reposted it, it is so true:
Kahilil Gibran says "Your joy can fill you only as deeply your sorrow has carved you." If you've never tasted bitterness, sweet is just another pleasant flavor on your tongue. One day, I'm going to hold a lot of joy.
I can say some pretty smart things sometimes.
Hope you've enjoyed your day and have a wonderful evening. I'm going to have a relaxing rest of the evening and try to go to bed early to make up for lack of sleep last night.