Day 31/ House Hunting/ Getting Ready
Saturday, June 17, 2017
Got 3 hours of sleep last night, one hour at a time, not continuous. I'm exhausted and depressed, though I can't tell if the depression is because of lack of sleep or not.
I was thinking about the service dog that I want/need and realizing not only is it not going to happen for a while, it may never happen. I am very depressed about that. I wrote on my crouchingflea.com website and was crying I was so upset about it. I think it is just the depression. I know logically that it would have to wait at least a year because of moving. But in my heart I had hoped for it to happen by next year and now I am crushed that it won't. DH says he still wants to try our best to get me one once this is all over. So perhaps I'm just upset because I'm depressed.
My anxiety is getting worse with the lack of sleep and I'm having a hard time doing things. Partly because I'm so tired, partly because of anxiety.
We are serious internet house hunting now. Looks like we will go look at the ones we like mid-July. Wow. We get boxes this weekend and start really packing the non-essentials starting Monday. Next week we are going to rent a storage unit and start moving the boxes and other non-essentials to it then.
My new meds for sleep won't get here until Monday. That is a long time to wait for someone with not enough sleep. I'm not talking about "oh poor me I only slept six hours last night", I'm talking about in the past 4 months the most I have slept at night is 4 hours. I'm talking about a 3 hour night like last night is a good night. I'm talking about I have not slept a continuous amount of sleep of over 2 hours in 4 months. Sorry, I'm a bit touchy about the subject.
My new supplements get here today! I get to try the SGT (Sequential Gel Technology) Rest tonight, since I don't have any sleep meds to help me sleep till Monday. I know that it will take more than a few nights of good sleep to get me back on my feet, but I have honestly forgot what it feels like to be rested. I was doing good with 4 hours of sleep week before last but this last week with 1-2 hours of sleep really has me just dragging and my brain fogged.
Tomorrow I will try the all energy shot, Pure, and see how it works so I will have energy for Father's day. Hopefully soon I won't need these energy shots or drinks and I'll be able to go on my own energy!!
I have not been able to work out, I am far to tired. I'm drooping and it's really hard staying awake, though when I try to go and sleep, I can't. It's so frustrating!
I tried the suggested frozen berries in water... I forgot that I don't like blueberries and I think that ruined the flavor. I think If I could get all raspberries I would like it better. However I have a bottle of all natural lemon juice and tried that in some ice cold water - I love it! It's so crisp and refreshing! I love unsweet tea with lemon, but I think I love this more! Plus it is cheap, The bottle of lemon juice doesn't cost much at all. Thank you for recommending it!
And we are broke. We had to do a few extra things for getting the house and well, we have enough for gas for the next week and a half at least. Luckily DH had gone grocery shopping already and we had worked out enough food for two weeks, including veggies and fruits, fresh and frozen. My anxiety always goes up when we are in this kind of situation, no matter how well thought out it is.
Knowing we are moving, I inventoried the freezers so we can add what is in it to our meal plans. Use as much as possible. Well, I did the deep freezer and half of the inside freezer, I need to finish it. I had no idea I still had 4 bags of edamame or 7 bags of broccoli!! We have more than enough to last till the end of next week, for sure! Shoot, I have enough strawberries and pineapple for shakes that all I need for a while is my almond milk! And I can try it with just water and see what happens, how it tastes.
So that is what is going on, sorry if I complained too much about the lack of sleep, it is really getting me down. I need the energy to get things done for moving!
Have a GREAT weekend, and Happy Father's Day!