The Alternate Universe

I proved something important to myself today - a bad day emotionally does not have to equal a bad day of eating. I had forgotten how being on Spark helps me feel more in control of what is happening, even if it's only in this one area of my life.

In an alternate universe, I'd be on the sofa right now, probably consoling myself with some cookies and milk. Then, I'd be sad about my crappy day AND the fact that I succumbed to self-destructive behavior.

Self-destruction ... that was a watershed moment for me, a few days ago. I wish I could remember who posted it in the community blog, so I could give credit where credit is due, but I really connected with what someone else wrote about coming to terms with self-destructive cycles of behavior.

I deserve better, and I am gonna make that happen. Time for a change.