Ok so now the work begins again. The yard was a mess. Worked on the front one
Decided I did NOT want to put the tile down in master bedroom
Returned it all to Home Depot. Talk about breaking a sweat loading all the dang stuff into the truck.
It was good that I can be active without a lot of limping again. I was getting lowered feelings. I was feeling so lost. I was thinking about selling my home. I was feeling like all was lost and that I was too old and more than likely I would not be well enough to care for my home again.
Today not so much. May as well keep it. Then I think why in the heck am I keeping a 4 bedroom home when only about 2 room get any use. Still working on that thought.
Went back to my self pity over eating. Adding sweets to my list of anything goes.
Embarrassed to say that AGAIN I am going back to more veggie time and less pity time. Really I should say leave yesterday to yesterday, stop being disgusted by my eating and be kind and understanding to myself.
Going for the first five pounds below what my last SP weigh in was. I will not weigh for a week or two because more than likely I have gained 10 pounds during this confused eating time.
I ask myself when did I lose caring about myself.
I have gotten so I don't really want to dress up. I feel there is not reason to. I just want to be comfortable. So I must admit that I am NOT comfortable when my belly is in my way again and my sweat pant have become my best friend.
Talking myself into joining Curves. The Ten $ a month one.
Does anyone have any experience with this gym?
Are there any hidden fees?
Are members limited to a 30 minute work out?
I think a health gym would be a good place for me to go instead of the local fast food joint
Thanks for any info that you may have.
Thank you my Spark friends. Thank you for helping me
save my life.