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Friday, July 28, 2017

I didn't go in the hospital, so I was here for DD's birthday... But I slept through the last half of the day because I was not doing good. That's okay because the party is not till Saturday.

I'm still not doing good. The slightest things set off my anxiety and I have a panic attack. About the only things that calm me down are sleeping (if I can, big IF there) and crocheting while watching videos on service dogs and training dogs. I'm really enjoying learning some of the things they do to train dogs. And I've learned I'm going to need a LOT of treats, lol. But it keeps me concentrating on Hope and not on whatever had triggered me, it works.

We went out to eat and run errands yesterday and just walking... walking! set off a panic attack, so I'm struggling to breathe and burning hot and it was just a bad thing that I went and ran errands with the family. I didn't enjoy my usual hibachi, it tasted bland to me because my everything was panicking and I just was not in a good head space at all. Today I have to go because we are enrolling the kids in public school and I must be there. Then we are going shopping.

I hate to say this, but I may need to go to the hospital. I'm struggling with everyday things. I don't want to, but if I get any worse, I'm going to go back and revisit it. I see my new psychiatrist Tuesday and we'll see from there, I guess. I hate to put such a burden on my husband, but I'm not going to do him any good if I get worse and end up with a longer stay in the hospital.

I feel strange typing this out, but I wanted to give an honest update. I'm not doing well. I've gained weight. I'm going to have to either really put a lot of work into losing weight asap, or go buy some new clothes that fit. I'll opt for working really hard, exercise is a stress reliever. It's just hard to exercise when you have no energy or can't breathe.

emoticon to you guys! I'm missing talking with you all, and I'll get on as I'm able, but right now, I'm not able.
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    Maybe right now don't focus on losing weight or not. Just focus on ways to get your head in the space it finds most comforting. Meditation? Prayer? Music? something that soothes you. Once you feel better, you can look at things like weight loss.

    emoticon I hope you feel better very soon.
    1156 days ago
    emoticon Take care of you! Prayers going up!
    1156 days ago
    You are in my thoughts and Do you know what set off your anxiety/ panic attacks this time. Hope your new Dr. can help. Try to remember and do your relaxation techniques. I know it is hard. We are here for you. Hugs.
    1157 days ago
    emoticon At this point, just don't add the additional pressure of losing weight. Just take this a day at a time. Sending prayers and healing light! emoticon
    1157 days ago
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    Hugs to you.
    1157 days ago
    Sorry you are not doing well. I, too, deal with panick but not on a huge level as yours. Will put you on my prayer list. Hang in there. Feel the calm.
    1157 days ago
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