I'm still not doing well, but I have not been doing my coping skills and one of them is exercise, so after my morning shake settles I'll go hop on the treadmill and then do some pilates (for beginners!). Tomorrow is my day 'off' so I'll only do 10 minutes and lots of stretching. I've lost some mobility in my right leg and that concerns me so I'm going to work on strengthening and stretching my legs as well as everything else.
I'm still not up to answering emails and posts, so please forgive me if I'm late answering, I'm doing my best getting one at a time. But I promise, I will reply.
So a while back I told you I was making a bullet journal because I'm a pen and paper kind of gal and there are some thing I want to track that either aren't on SP or I have not found them. I'm still working on it, but I have a weeks worth printed and am going to do it this week, Here is a look at both sides, it is A5 so each is half a page:
I accidentally put blood sugar and blood pressure on both pages. I need to be keeping track of those things so this week I will check it twice a day and for next week I will put something else in those places unless I feel like I need to continue to monitor them more closely. It's super easy to make, you can download one free off the internet or do what I did and make your own on MS Publisher. I love Publisher, there is so much you can do with it!
I also have a weigh in day page that is just for Monday's. Has reflections, lessons learned as well as my stats for the week, how I feel I'm doing, what I can do better, my BMI and what my next goal is.... all kinds of stuff. I'll post pictures Monday maybe.
I'm trying not to be upset with myself, I've gained at least 5-10 pounds. My emotional eating has been out of control. I need foods at home that I can munch on that are healthy. I need more veggies and greek yogurt and I need to stop turning to food for comfort. I'm going to try to get back into my Bible reading, but one thing at a time. I don't want to add too much at one time and overwhelm myself. I've already got a lot starting on Monday and I don't want to add any more to what I'm starting.
I'm going to be getting up at 0500 so that I'm awake and have had my meds/vitamins and can wake the kids at 0530, supervise their showering in a reasonable time (I have a waterproof timer), getting dressed, eating breakfast and getting ready for school. I'm getting breakfast bars to put in their backpacks just in case they are still hungry when they get to school. This week will be practice so that we can do it on time next week. While they are getting ready I'll be doing a quick lesson with the dog.
Once they 'leave' for school (for this week start their daily chores), I'll get on the treadmill and do as much as I can and then do my workout video and walk some more when I'm done, then cool down and stretch. Shower, then have a 10 minute session with the dog, and then keep doing 10 minute sessions throughout the day giving him ample time to play and have fun, maybe start going for walks once the normal leashes get here, and exercise him plenty. I'm going to be mainly working on me and cleaning and the dog for the next couple of weeks. I've got my workbook to get through, I've got my crocheting and sewing to work on, teaching the dog, exercising and books to read. As well as cleaning and going through all the boxes to see what needs to be unpacked and what needs to be put out The we can get these boxes into storage till we move!
I'm going to take it slow and one day at a time. I will try to get on SP, but no guarantee, I'm going to be busy, busy.
I am worried about this week, we have a lot to do and yesterday my anxiety was so bad I crashed at 1 PM. I made myself go on and go to the pet store with DH and out to eat but I felt like I was in a bubble the whole time, It was really difficult. I won't do that again. This time I did because we didn't have the kids so DH wanted to go out to eat without the kiddos. It was nice to go to the pet store without the kiddos too (they are at their grandparents). We have back to school shopping, last minute appointments, room organizing, and talks about how to behave in the classroom to have. Like how to stand in line and that you have to raise your hand to go to the bathroom. Plus meet the teacher day and taking in all th supplies and all that. I'm tired just thinking about it.
DH can't work from home this next week. He is taking off to take me to an appointment and probably for meet the teacher day. Unless I get worse, and I'm hoping that won't happen.I feel like I'm still not getting enough rest, I still am having my symptoms. I'm having DH put a GPS locator program on my phone that he can see from his phone. The confusion is getting worse and I don't want to get confused and get lost. This way he'll know where I'm at and can help me. Yes, I have Google Maps, but it reads like Greek to me when I'm in that confused state. Hopefully this won't happen, and I won't get that bad, but it's best to be prepared.
God Bless, and thank you all for being so understanding and supportive, you are awesome!!