I saw a different psychiatrist than I had signed up to see, something happened and he had been double booked all day and my appointment got lost. What? But I am pleased with the doctor they had me see, he made a lot of changes at once but explained his reasoning and I agree. I really liked him, he listened to me, he didn't talk over me, he saw my problem that I was over medicated right away. He knew what I was talking about when I talked about certain kinds of meds, he is going to work just fine, I think.
They are going paperless but he wrote down all of the changes for me so I would not get confused. The only thing I didn't get to talk to this guy about was the service dog, and I see him in three weeks, and he seemed like the type that I won't have a problem with on this.
Got ripped off getting my flu shot yesterday. $45, when I could have got it for free at the clinic. But I thought I was paying for my diabetic strips so I paid it. No sense arguing after it's already paid for. Plus maybe this year I won't catch the flu since I'm immunized so early. I hope I don't, it was awful last year! At least Next time the clinic for sure! No more getting shots at the pharmacy!!
I had a really rough day yesterday. I had a flashback in the waiting area of the psychiatrist's office... forgot my water and had to ask for some, my blood pressure was 142/94, and I've not seen it that high since I started my new rx for blood pressure. So flashbacks are bad for that as well.
I'm doing what was suggested by ya'll and not concentrating on weight. I'm still trying to exercise, but with as little sleep as I get, I'm not pushing it. I'm trying for 10 minutes but like yesterday only got 5 because I slept so little, I have nightmares and flail around when I do sleep... It's like I'm getting an aerobic exercise when I sleep!! I don't sleep on the bed much any more, I sleep on my oversized bean bag. It's comfortable and all, but I miss my bed! But I don't want to beat up DH in my sleep and I seem to flail about less in the bean bag because I have it squished just right like it's hugging me. lol.
OH! No more of the med that makes me confused for a few minutes after waking up, so no more waking up wondering where I am or why I'm upside-down on the ceiling (woke up thinking that a few times because of the room set up where the bean bag is, LOL), I'm so glad because nothing is like waking up not knowing who, or where you are. It's funny when you try to explain it to people, it's not funny to go through it.
I see my therapist today and I can't wait. I have so many questions, we won't have time for them all, I know it. The workbook we are going through, I can't seem to go any further, it hits too close to home so I'm going to have to work closely with her. Like I mentioned in a previous post I don't have all the basic skills you are supposed to learn when you first start therapy, my therapists all sucked and no one ever taught me. My current therapist knew how long I had been in therapy so I guess she thought I knew. She's going to be shocked and outraged tomorrow when she finds out I have no clue.
It's 0400.... I wake up at 0500.... is there any sense in even going to bed? I'm tired but not tired enough to fall asleep quickly, usually takes me at least 20 minutes to fall asleep.
Well I hope you all are a-snooze and dreaming peacefully. I'll make some coffee and get ready for my day. Thank you all for stopping by, means so much to me!