Thanks for asking about my future service dog. I do not have her yet, in fact she isn't even born yet! (I know, counting my chickens before they hatch...) If they successfully have puppies I will have a Golden Retriever puppy come December - a Christmas puppy! And all I want for Christmas! I am going to do what is called owner training, only I'm going to work closely with a trainer (starting at 3x a week then slowly decreasing as I get the hang of it). I'm a little anxious as driving causes me anxiety and the trainer lady is an hour away, but for my service dog, her name will be Hope, I will do anything I can. If the litter doesn't happen, I will get a slightly older Golden Doodle. I much prefer the Golden Retriever, it's just the breed I want. But that is in God's hands. As we start decreasing the times that we meet in person we will start skyping and texting more. I really like the lady I've been talking to about this and she was recommended by a friend who is s therapist. and raises her dogs especially to be service dogs, emotional support dogs and therapy dogs. I'm excited, but trying to contain it as so much could go wrong or I could have to wait for another Golden litter. I want a female and I am not budging on that.
Hope will be her name, as that is what she has given me, hope for the future. She will be considered a service dog in training as soon as I get her and will get a vest and be able to go anywhere I go, within reason for a puppy. I was looking at beds for her and DH was like, oh no, she's going to sleep with you, help you sleep at night! I still want to get her a bed, a space that is just hers, where she can relax. Seems only right.
I'm working on training our small dog, Pickles (named so after Mr. Picklesmeyer (Sp?) who rescued him) He's a mess but he wants to please so much, he's doing much better after just a few days, though I think if we took away the treats at this stage he'd just walk away, LOL.
We've had a very busy day yesterday and I was exhausted but couldn't sleep, I tend to only make one appointment a day because my anxiety wears me out. Yesterday I had two appointments plus several errands. I'm not driving right now due to PTSD, so we all had to go because school starts today. The bright side is I'm now seeing my therapist 2x a week for 2 weeks and my new glasses will be here next week.You don't want to know how bad my eyesight has gotten.
I keep having the same flashback over and over, it is pervasive, I can't see anything else when I'm seeing it (which is why DH doesn't want me driving) I've got other flashbacks that are coming through too but this one is on repeat. I told it to my therapist and she said it's repeating because it is incomplete and because I'm not accepting it. I don't want it to be real. Sorry, probably TMI, but that is stuck in my head.
I did a 15 minute slower treadmill workout, Coach Nicole's Butt Workout, a faster paced walk (trying to elongate my stride) for 10 minutes, then 30 minutes of yoga therapy. and then stretched.
Next time I will start elongating my stride during the first 15 minute too and stretch before I do the yoga therapy, by the time I stretched my body had cooled down and couldn't do as much stretching as I wanted to. My goal right now is 1 mile, which is pushing it. Takes me about 24 minutes which is sad because I used to do 2 miles in less than that.
I'm not making losing weight and getting shape a priority right now, even though I'm working out and strength training. I see it as therapy for my body, a way to get some of that anxiety out, which is why I'm incorporating the yoga therapy at the end. Right now I feel more relaxed than I have in a long while. I will do this every day that I can, and now that the girls have started school (first day of school!) I will make it my daily routine that when they get dressed for school, I'll get dressed to work out.
Looking at buying a punching bag, DH is picking it out. We are going to start, eventually, working on anger therapy (like letting out my anger instead of holding it in) and therapist wants me to have a punching bag for that.
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