Scary Night/ Apathetic/ Cough
Sunday, August 20, 2017
So last night, as with almost every night, I'm up by midnight and the dog comes down the stairs wanting to be taken out. So I do even though I'd been hearing weird noises outside earlier. It felt like something was watching me, and I kept looking in the darkness behind the master bedroom. I turned my back for a minute, heard a noise, whirled around just in time to see a big flash of blue-grey in the darkness. Needless to say we ran inside, not turning my back to the darkness again, which was kinda awkward, then locked the door. Scary. Don't know what it was. I think the dog will have to hold his pee at night from now on.
My cough has gotten worse, I'm so glad to be going to the allergist on Monday. I think it is worse because I'm catching a sinus infection, so add to my dry cough some post nasal drip. Not good.
I got 5 hours of sleep last night. Two hours, then two hours, then one hour. Not exactly how I would choose to sleep. I felt really sleepy later in the morning (around 8) so tried to go cuddle up in the bean bag and go back to sleep, which woke me up. My brain was like, "no sleep for you!" I can't wait till my appointment with the sleep specialist in October. I'm at the max that the psychiatrist said I could up the dose of my sleep meds, I'm hoping it will take a few days to kick in and then start working (it's not the kind you have to take weeks to start working just a few days).
I started working out yesterday, but then thought, what if I'm getting too little sleep to work out and this just exhausts my body more and sends it into adrenaline mode more, which keeps me awake more. So I messaged my psychiatrist to see how much sleep I need to be getting at night before I start working out. I don't want to do more harm than good.
I'm really depressed and apathetic this morning. It is taking me forever to get this blog done because I'm just not interested in anything so I feel like I don't have anything to say, but really there is so much going on.
One thing I've been doing is making my shopping lists on Amazon for when I get Hope, my service dog. It keeps me preoccupied and concentrating on something other than my anxiety and depression. I've got a great list going, it has been a great couple days working on it, I've found some great websites in the process, but I think I've looked at everything I can think of to look at. Now I'm just reviewing and refining. Moved all the patches into one shopping list, gonna move the 'essentials', things I must have when she first comes home into another, and then I can't think of anything else to do. Now what am I going to do to preoccupy myself? I would work out but I need to wait to hear back from the doc on that. There is only so much you can clean at one time. I would bake but then I would want to eat it... LOL.
So I guess I'm going to pester DH to help me come up with something, lol.
So I'm off for now to see what I can do, hopefully not bake, unless it is bread of some sort. Have a great weekend!