What is wrong with me
Saturday, September 30, 2017
I first started my Sparkpeople journey back in 2007. I was almost done with college (took me a while to get there) and I wanted a new lease on life. Since then, I turned 40, ran numerous races (5K's, 10K's and 2 1/2 marathons) I have worked out in the gym, went on many walks (some as far as 1/2 marathon) gone on bike rides and now I am 43 and have no desire to do any of it. I look at other peoples posts...see people outside exercising...and a big part of me knows I should be right out there with them...but I don't. The end result of not wanting to do any of this....I eat more and I have been the heaviest that I have ever been in my life.
Clothes that I have worn...they don't fit and I try to justify to myself why the next biggest size isn't a problem.
My husband, he has been my biggest cheerleader through all the races. He and I work out together in the gym...he has tried to find out by talking to me...why I don't want to do the things I used to....and I have no answer for him. I said it was that I "lost my running high" I just do not know if that was the right answer.
Why can't I find a button to inspire me again?