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Tuesday, November 07, 2017

Today was 8 days of eating right and tracking. I had a crummy day. I let stress get to me, I hated my lunch even though there’s nothing wrong with a tuna sandwich. I wanted fast food. A burger, pizza, fries, cookies, something! Some excuse to eat comforting food. I felt uncomfortable and over reacted to everything and I wanted to turn to food, my best friend. I was at a store where I could have candy or chips or any number of “bad” things. Nobody would know. I settled for a Diet Pepsi which I love but usually limit myself to one a day. So I compromised. I”treated” myself but I didn’t go crazy. I didn’t punish myself with food as I tried to figure out why I was so crazy today. I guess I just wanted to return to my habits that make me feel better. But then I feel crappy for doing it. So today, I had a soda. And it was enough. And I got through the day. And tomorrow will bring more opportunities to chose wisely. So today, I am proud of my choices. Let’s see what tomorrow brings when the stress rolls in and I become a bratty kid who wants what I want. I’m 56. It’s hard to grow up. But that’s the something I want too.
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    Isn't it crazy how we lie to ourselves that those foods make us "feel better," when they physically and emotionally don't? I asked myself, "how do those foods make me feel better?" And I was totally shocked when I realized that they actually don't. It's the act of defiance that makes me feel better. So...finding another way to express that defiance is my current pursuit. There has to be another way to thumb our noses at life's cr@p than to hurt ourselves, or even make ourselves uncomfortable. Do something else "unacceptable?" Maybe shriek? Say a forbidden word? I don't know, but I'm sure trying to find something that has that satisfying feeling that WILL end up with me feeling better and not worse. I hope you can do the same.
    1115 days ago
    I love love love this blog. I can feel you, feel this. Diet code was my decision the other day, two actually. GREAT job. I hate when I become a brat to myself but can't seem to stop it. You go girl. GREAT job!
    1115 days ago
  • CJSM86
    Nice! It happens to everyone, but glad you noticed and curbed it with a substitute offer.
    1116 days ago
    emoticon for your choice. It may have been off your plan, but it didn't do the damage your other choices would have!

    Let's make better choices tomorrow!

    1116 days ago
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