I want something!
Tuesday, November 07, 2017
Today was 8 days of eating right and tracking. I had a crummy day. I let stress get to me, I hated my lunch even though there’s nothing wrong with a tuna sandwich. I wanted fast food. A burger, pizza, fries, cookies, something! Some excuse to eat comforting food. I felt uncomfortable and over reacted to everything and I wanted to turn to food, my best friend. I was at a store where I could have candy or chips or any number of “bad” things. Nobody would know.
I settled for a Diet Pepsi which I love but usually limit myself to one a day. So I compromised. I”treated” myself but I didn’t go crazy. I didn’t punish myself with food as I tried to figure out why I was so crazy today. I guess I just wanted to return to my habits that make me feel better. But then I feel crappy for doing it.
So today, I had a soda. And it was enough. And I got through the day. And tomorrow will bring more opportunities to chose wisely. So today, I am proud of my choices. Let’s see what tomorrow brings when the stress rolls in and I become a bratty kid who wants what I want. I’m 56. It’s hard to grow up. But that’s the something I want too.