2017 has been a horrible, terrible year
Thursday, November 30, 2017
I had such high hopes for 2017! Things were finally going to be better after bad years in 2015 and 2016. No such luck! My sweet mom was diagnosed with a recurrence in her stomach cancer just before the end of 2016. We left her obnoxious oncologist and traveled to MD Anderson where she was given hope and the best treatment! Things looked good. Then in May she and my daddy were in a car accident that totaled her car but they both walked away from it. We thought that this was a sign that things were going to be better. In June my sweet daughter lost one of her best friends to brain cancer. SIX! Sweet little thing was SIX! 2 weeks later our dear neighbor across the street passed away. Then my sweet Momma fell and fractured her hip. After surgery to repair it she went to rehab for some time and came home. She got weaker and weaker. She was put back in the hospital on the 30th of July and on August 4th she went home to be with our dear Lord. 80 years she rocked this world with her most amazing and angelic voice. 50 years she was married to the love of her life, my daddy. 45 years she was the most wonderful mom to me. 24 years she was grandma to my two special girls. 11 years she was the best mother-in-law my hubby could have ever asked for. Now she sings with those who have gone before with the choirs of angels. My entire family's world was turned upside down. My daddy, who is 90, just doesn't know what to do now that she is gone. I try to do what she would but it is very hard. I made it through my youngest daughter's 7th birthday, my 46th birthday, Halloween and Thanksgiving. I am working hard to master my emotions to make it through her birthday (12/24) and Christmas. It is going to be very hard but I will do my best to honor her throughout it all.
To say my weight loss journey has been turned on its head is an understatement. I have barely made it to the gym 5 times since the first of the year. I made it to 2 sessions of Camp Gladiator that I got for free for a month. I've tried hard to walk to help keep more fit. I've gained and lost weight so many times I think my scale feels like a yo-yo instead of a scale. My body hurts because the weight is more than my bone structure can handle. I lost my tracker to poor craftsmanship. I've tried keeping up with things with just my phone for 2 months but I just haven't been successful. I'm determined that no matter what 2018 throws at me, and I'm sure now that it will probably be a doozie, that I will get my body back under MY control!
Through all of this we have continued to homeschool my youngest and tried to keep my family together. I am thankful for the doctors, nurses, aides, my family friends, my family, and my God because without these we would have all succumbed to our extreme sadness during 2017. I'm not happy with the year but I do think I'm stronger because of it. No matter how old you are, you always need your MOM! I miss her but I know she would want me to power on, just as she did when she lost her own mom back in the 90s. God is there for us, so I lean on Him! So there, take that 2017! You didn't beat me, I am stronger than you!
Family portrait from 2013