Good Thursday morning Sparkers!
I have written a few blogs this week, and immediatly deleted them. I was feeling so negative and it came out in my blogs! I have a lot medically going on and it's getting me down. But I got a little sleep last night so I am feeling somewhat better. I got to finally try this honey-roasted coffee this morning and it is really yummy.
Below is Pickles (the dog) and my two girls. He's such a character! This morning he let me know I had forgotten his breakfast by rolling his bob-a-lot (see amazon) around the living room floor on the hardwood. So he had breakfast in it this morning, I've been doing that a lot lately, it seems to keep him happy in the mornings while his girls are away at school. He's such a cutey, but man does he weigh a ton when he gets on top of the covers! I had to kick him off the bed last night so I could fix the covers. His night routine is usually to come hang out with me till DH kicks him out of bed and then he'll go sleep with one of the girls.
As far as exercise, diet, and losing weight goes...
I'm having a difficult time. I can't exercise. I'm so exhausted from the coughing, not enough sleep and going up and down the stairs so much (at least a little exercise there!) and losing my breath so much, I am afraid I'd have a coughing fit on the treadmill and fall off. Maybe I will try a walk around the neighborhood today. I can't fall off it, LOL!!
Diet is totally not going well, I'm not sticking to it and I really need to. Today I am going to. And I'm going to plan each day in the morning and stick to it, just for today, one day at a time. I'm quitting coffee as soon as my creamer runs out, so should be next week. I'm substituting tea for a while, I've got some caffeinated teas right now and am trying to switch to totally herbal/decaf. I'm picking up some decaf regular tea (for making iced tea) and am going to half and half it for a while before switching totally to decaf.
DH recalibrated the scale, and I'm going to weigh each morning to remind me what I'm doing this for. For me, for my health, for my life. This is no joke. When the doctor starts talking to you about life expectancy.... you pay attention. I had a doctor, the surgeon who did my gall bladder and is going to do my hernia when I lose weight, laid it all out for me. He is a very polite guy, wears a bow tie, and I don't know how he said it all so politely, but it still scared the crap out of me. I think I was in shock afterwards. I need to keep that in mind when I go to have extra food or eat instead of drinking my shake.
So that brings me to the bariatric surgery. I have to get this cough thing figured out because you can't have a major stomach surgery while you are coughing so much. Kinda makes it hard to recover. I went to my allergist, he has me going to ENT for a scope of my throat, but didn't pay attention to other problems I'm having just told me to change nothing, even though what I'm doing is not working at all. Went to my PCM the next day. Nothing. I'm so frustrated. I understand that there is no magic cure for this, but geez, do something. Don't' tell me "maybe" about anything. You are a doctor, use that degree! So today I'm calling my insurance and getting a patient advocate and getting a new PCM and whole new network. I'm keeping my therapist, of course, and staying with the Obesity clinic I go to. I'm still going to get these tests done, but as far as the rest, send me to some people who will actually help me.
So, changing things around a bit. Working on getting a network that will take care of me and not just see me as another number. I am trying to look at the positive, not the negative. If I look at the negative too long I'll get depressed and that is not what I need. I need to be positive, working hard as I can, and keeping my eyes on the goal
I'll post pictures next week when we get the whole furniture set together, but we got half of our furniture delivered this week! I love it! It needs pillows and such to go with it, some throw blankets too. The tree has been up for quite a while (since we moved in, lol) and the stockings are finally hung over the fireplace. Now to get some firewood, it is really getting cold! So, today I'm going to work on the basics and either my craft space or my bedroom. Maybe both if I have time. I can't wait to get the house all set up! I really want to get the craft stuff set up and buy a table for me to work on, I have so many things I want to make! Yes, I've been on Pinterest, LOL. So, busy day! I'm just hanging out right now, waiting for places to open so I can make all of the phone calls I need to make this morning.
Hope y'all have a Spark*tastic day! And do something just for you today! Even if it is something small, it will help you feel better!