New year, same old me
Wednesday, January 03, 2018
It's been a while since I've posted; the school year has been quite hectic. I finished the Orangetheory weight loss challenge back in November, with a grand total of 4 pounds lost. Needless to say, I did not come even close to winning ( I think the top female lost around 30 pounds or so), but I stuck in there, any and weight loss at all is a victory for me, really. I've been going to OTF for almost a year. Had a few more setbacks in the last couple of months...twisted my ankle at work then three days later slipped in the shower (I actually flew all the way out of the shower, hitting my head on the toilet and whacking my leg on the side of the tub...really painful with the bonus of being also super embarrassing).
So I've missed a few exercise sessions here and there. But I have been eating vegetarian for the last few months. Don't really miss the meat. The Dude's blood sugar numbers are down, so that's an added perk. The vegetarian lifestyle has also not sparked any increase in weight loss. However, that may be in part due to the fact that potato chips are vegetarian...
For the new year I am determined to clean up my diet. I need to cut out the snacks. I need to cut out the refined carbs. I need to learn to like beans and chickpeas. I need to practice my planks, seeing as I've been exercising for almost a year and I still can't hold one for more than 25 seconds. I'd like to be able to run a mile without stopping and lift heavier weights (without dropping them on my toes or otherwise injuring myself...the clumsiness is real).
But there has been progress.
I can zip up my boots. I thought I would be doomed to buying wide-calf boots, but I can fit into my old boots now (albeit with leggings and not tucked-in jeans yet).
I can pull up to 225 watts on a rowing machine. When I first started, I couldn't even do a hundred.
I can get all the groceries into the house in one trip.
I can touch my toes.
I can run. Not fast, but I can do it. There are a lot of twenty-something soccer moms there that can sprint like gazelles at 10 mph. I can get up to 7 mph for maybe 15 seconds. But when I started, I couldn't run at all.
Back when I was just doing Jillian Michaels videos in my office, working out with 8 lb weights was difficult. Now I can do exercises with 15 lb weights. I could probably do 20, but I'm still terrified of dropping one on myself.
So there has been progress. I'm definitely stronger and faster and have better endurance. It's just that elusive number on the scale...it's the reflection in the mirror...it's the clothing not getting any looser. I went to an endocrinologist in November. Waited a month to see the guy, and had high hopes that he had some kind of miracle plan to get my hypothyroidism in check. He only spent 8 minutes with me, left before I could ask him questions, and left me on the same medication that I had been on, with a referral to come back in 6 months. Hopes=dashed.
the internet is filled with supplements and diets and advice for hypothyroidism. Most of it is poorly researched and contradictory. Gluten free! Paleo! Exercise harder! Don't exercise too much! Leptin resistance! Cortisol exhaustion! Intermittent fasting! If it's out there, I've tried it. To no avail.
Whatever. I'm still the same old me...tired, fat, depressed. but I'm stubborn, and I will keep plodding along until I find something that works.