Ready to Listen
Friday, February 02, 2018
Being honest with myself. Mindset-not there. Motivation-not there. Self-discipline-not there. Yet, at 49, I am not ready to give up on myself or the life I long for. I can hear the voice of determination struggling to be acknowledged through the constantly clamoring roar of self-loathing. I want so desperately to act on behalf of that voice....I can remember how good it felt when my health and my life reflected that voice being loud enough to drown out the ugly roar. Change is a difficult road for me. I traveled it once and reached my destination, but I hadn't done enough work on the inside to hang onto a permanent residence there for my outside. So, here I am...again. But....the voice is growing louder daily....and I am ready to listen.