Frustrated and Overwhelmed
Sunday, February 04, 2018
My depression is bad, i see my shrink on Weds. Hoping and praying he helps, everyone thinks im ADD and my therapist is going to talk to him before i see him about it, i was diagnosed 6 years ago when i lived down state but he ignored it when i moved back so i am determined to have him check it out. i can not focus on ANYTHING for more than a few mins. I am so unorganized, my mind races in a million places 24/7 i dont sleep because of it. last night i finally was able to lay down about 1am and was up by 5am and only slept about 2 hours in that time. No matter what i do my blood sugars wont come down except i had one low the other day, i forgot to eat after taking my insulin and walked all over walmart for almost an hour and i crashed by the time i got in the car, first time ive had a sugary soda in a year and half! Had to get it up though! I can not get below 174 and a lot of people think oh well as long as your under 200 your good, but no anythign 140 and up and i feel miserable, headaches, tired, just yuck. I am drinking a bout a gallon of water a day right now and it still doesnt come down. Its bad enough i have a hard time eating with my ulcer but to have to struggle to get my sugars down too? It got worse when i got switched from lantus to basaglar but my INS no longer covers lantus. They got a contract with basaglar so everyone got switched. My mind is racing so bad im forgetting what to type on here UGH! I see my PCP tomorrow i hope she can help me get my sugars down and help a few other issues. Being in so much pain 24/7 does NOT help! And the daily migraines UGH! I snack prepped yesterday and meal prepped today i do not have to cook until Saturday now. I have 10 meals ready to go i made 3 things today to make into 10 meals. Then i got healthy snacks and banana bread with boiled eggs for breakfast!