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So Excited! Things finally starting to come together!!!

Friday, February 16, 2018

Wowzer, what an up and down yesterday was!! But overall it was wonderful and I can't wait to take on today!

First I didn't sleep yesterday (nor much last night), not even during my usual window of sleep time after the kids leave for school. I don't know why i can sleep then, I'm just happy to have a time when I can sleep! But I only slept for a few minutes even during this time. But during that small time I had what Flylady might call a God Breeze, or might be called an epiphany. Several in fact and it totally changed my mood and mind.

First was this whole thing with my brother and sister and the box of broken things they sent me. It made me feel awful. But why should I feel awful? They are the ones being petty and childish. So I went through the box again with my girls and they picked out what they wanted and we tossed the rest. Except for the jewelry box full of broken costume jewelry, the girls want to use that for arts and crafts, and I thought it was a brilliant way to turn a bad situation into a good one. And, as far as the emails and letters go... I don't care. I really don't. Say what they may, it is of no difference to me any more. I will not let them try to manipulate me, guilt me or any of that. I'm free of them and I have no intention of letting them back into my life.

And just in time, I realize why I'm having such a hard time with sticking to my diet and exercise!! I won't go into all that, but I will say part of it is my perfectionism biting me in the butt again! I say 'just in time', because I got a letter from my insurance company and they are trying to approve my surgery! So I can get all the things that I need soon. And get set up for the surgery and get it paid for. I may have to take out a small loan, I hope it will go through. I didn't know you couldn't set up a payment plan, you have to pay for it all up front. That is going to put a damper on things. But I'm so excited! Nervous, but who wouldn't be pending a surgery like this?

I'm excited to have this new outlook, now to keep it. I'm a lazy procrastinating perfectionist. I'll admit it. But I'm giving that up. It's not going to be easy, I think it's going to be like a seesaw, lots of ups and downs. But I've started doing my coping skills, my craft area is being set up (we finally got me a table!) and I got the crochet stuff out. I may not be able to buy stuff for sewing right now, but I have some paint by numbers I can do instead.

Now off to get ready to go to the clinic, get my x -ray of my finger done and work on what I can do for my surgery getting approved. Then home to exercise, stay on plan with my meal plan and get the house clean emoticon

(Now to find a way to combat the tiredness without caffeine, I'm quit as of today!)

Hope you have a terrific TGIF!!!

~Flea
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  • no profile photo CD1336516
    Absolutely wonderful hearing this...... I know the Lord is well pleased and will bless you greatly!!!!!! emoticon
    778 days ago
  • KOHLRABIGIRL
    Perfectionism does bite. Hoping it spurs you on positively.
    780 days ago
  • SILVER1369
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    780 days ago
  • LITTLEGUYSMOM1
    Wow! So excited for you! Once you get the right mindset, everything can change. You are on your way! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    781 days ago
  • IAMSUNNYHOWARD
    I have been out of touch for a bit. Check and see if the accept Care Credit . Care Credit is a program for medical, dental and even veterinarians.

    You are brave, I will do a lot of things, but giving up coffee isn't one of them- LOL

    I read an article that procrastinating is a symptom of perfectionism. I have a tendency to procrastinate too, but I am improving. I started a program last year from OM, called a Year to Clear. It has been very inspirational and reading what others are saying has helped me a lot. Sort of like SparkPeople.

    Hang in and keep painting your world beautiful!

    HUGS
    781 days ago
  • CHERYLHURT
    Have a great Friday!
    781 days ago
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