Daily blogging 3-2-18
Friday, March 02, 2018
Ok I guess I shouldn't call it daily blogging if I don't plan to keep it up daily, but whatever. Who knows, maybe I'll get back to blogging regularly.
I'm back on spark again, yay. I don't know what to say exactly without feeling like an idiot, so I guess I'll just be honest. After losing 30 pounds in 2016, I read a lot of books about loving yourself the way you are and being happy with your body the way it is, and I decided to give up counting carbs and calories and eating strictly.
Well, that was ok for a while, but over time I guess my carbs really crept up, and I started emotional eatting a lot. I need to admit that I have a serious problem with food, and I need to be diligent every day. I'm like an addict.
Well, this Monday I decided to start treating my body better. Yes, I plan on losing weight. Despute the book I read that said bto live yourself the way you are and be happy at any size, Iwant to lose 50 pounds buy December. And you know why? Because being fat is physically painful and I'm tired of it. How am I supposed to love myself and be happy with my body if it causes me so much pain? That's not possible, it's just not.
So it's been five days so far, and I've stuck with it pretty well, and you know what? I already feel so amazing. I'm having some low energy because I'm coming down off of a carb addiction, but I know that's temporary. What's important is that my bloating has gone away, my belly is so much smaller already because the bloating is gone, I don't have swollen hands or problems going to the bathroom, and the food I eat doesn't make me feel sick or yucky or guilty like it used to.
I need to start thinking about this as a lifetime change. Sugar is toxic, white flour is toxic, and lots of carbs are just off limits for me because that's how my body is built. And that's ok. I enjoy eating meat and cheese and veggies very much, and I need to focus on what I have versus what I'm missing out on.
I'm making NY strip steak tonight with roasted red peppers and cheese, a big salad with homegrown lettuce and Caesar dressing and olives, and a big glass of cold water. Sounds good!
Have a blessed day everyone!