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Friday, March 09, 2018

Here's the "tell-all" blog I need to write today.

Yesterday, I saw my PCM (new main doctor) for the beginning of the Annual Wellness Checkup. Actually, it wasn't a bad experience. The new doctor is female, was friendly, and she accentuated my great feeling of health and weight maintenance. She told me my BMI is now 25 (and declared it perfect), agreed that my HDL Blood cholesterol is very good, and told me to "continue my healthy lifestyle.

However, (there is that word of warning) when I got the "After Visit Summary" I saw red. There it was again...under the "problem list" was Bipolar three times. Why 3 times? I will find out the answer to that. For now, it spurs me on to "come out" as Bipolar to all of you because what I want to share includes that info. Now, I'm not upset that that diagnosis is there...just that it's there so many times. In general, I tell all my friends that I'm Bipolar, and have asked them to help me by telling me if I show any of the signs for either manic or depression.

So, I've recently signed up for swimming lessons through the Parks & Recreation program here. I was thrilled when at the third lesson I was able to float, breathe in the water, and kick with a floatation board much better than I had in the sessions before. When I told my friend that night there was one time that I told her how excited I was...and there was a pause on the line...both of us thought "Is this a manic coming on?" The next day (yesterday) nothing seemed to go well for me. By the time I drove home after the doctor visit, I was SO TIRED. So, I went to bed for a nap. That's unusual for me, and I wondered "am I depressed". So, I'm telling you this to let you all know how it works. Usually, I just live my life, and I'm usually happy and joyful....people are pleased because I'm almost always on the positive side.

That friend and I talked today at her house. We worked through it. (She's a retired nurse and social worker.) As she described it, I like to do things that others consider risky and scary most of time (i.e. learning to swim at 72 or teaching Tai Chi up on a stage) until I overload myself. Then I'm anxious and that can bring on either a manic or a depression. I'm learning to catch the signs myself and re-direct (i.e. exercise or do something for someone else or talk about my concerns or stop the behavior that is causing the anxiety.

Anyway, that's the scenario. Any comments are appreciated. Now I have to go to my Grief Group and talk them. Wonder what I'll say....to be continued.
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  • NASFKAB
    Thank you for sharing this important information it might encourage others to be positive about it. Happy to note you are so aware about it & have people who can talk & help you out. All the best dear Patti
    928 days ago
  • no profile photo LAH1222
    Thank you for sharing this. I'm glad you have a friend that you can talk to about being bipolar. I know that when I feel depressed, it helps to have someone to talk to.
    928 days ago
  • IMPROVINGME
    I appreciate and admire your openness and honesty with all of us. Great news with your overall health and maintenance! You've really worked hard at that.

    You are living your life doing things that bring you joy, and at the same time you are helping others. You have a good handle on your individual situation and what to do about it when things don't seem quite right, and I find it inspiring to read about your adventures. How fun that you are learning to swim! It would be great if we could all find just one thing that we are passionate about!

    I have read some of my After Visit Summaries online, and I have to keep reminding myself that someone else besides the doctor is viewing the information and then transcribing the report. (Many times the transcribers are in a typing pool and paid by the number of reports they complete.) My thoughts about this would be that as long as you know the diagnosis and the doctor knows the diagnosis, seeing it written three times doesn't mean your condition is any worse, and it is probably not something to be upset (see red) about. You are doing all you can to manage your illness, and you are working at it admirably. You had a good feeling about your visit when you left the office, so don't let those doubts work their way to diminish your pride in your accomplishments. If it would make you feel better to question it, then do, but they may not be able to state a reason why it was written that way.

    Hope the meeting with your Grief Group went well tonight.
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    928 days ago
  • POINDEXTRA
    It sounds like your managing your condition well, and have set up a great support system. That's terrific!
    928 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    Good you have your friend to talk with. And are atuned to signes of the challenge going one way or the other.

    I hope things stay stable for you adn you get your answers, too, about why it is repeated 3 times on your report. Good luck to you.


    928 days ago
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