The time to change has come.....

If I never change permanently nothing will ever change - I will ALWAYS be in this roller coaster pattern - with more ups than downs and I cannot complain if i do not make that change - shift in my thinking once and for all - it is so tiring always thinking about food - fighting myself on what to eat or not to eat & then honestly giving into the wrong foods - to start the negative "beat ups" that I do to myself for eating that whatever it may be - or since I ate it why not keep going - I will NEVER get to where I want to be - On how I want to feel - on how i want to look etc - NEVER!! if I do not make a permanent change once & for all.....



Maybe that is the issue all along - I cannot not change how I am BUT I change how i react and how I deal with how I handle things, issues, problems and Stresses!!!



I do not need to repair me BUT i need to repair how I react and deal so that when I am encountering those issues, problems and stresses - I can deal with it in a way that is not self-destructive BUT SELF EMPOWERING!

Turn those things in life and in me that I cannot control into reactions that are positive and self fulling. Once and for all!!



It is time to make that step and move forward!