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The negative consequences of trips down memory lane

Friday, May 04, 2018

In March I returned to Finland after twenty years! I was last there as a Rotary exchange student and a work conference brought me there again.

It was a remarkable trip. My first impressions as I stepped off the train in Helsinki with my husband and two year old was the realisation of just how young I was to have ventured into a country so different to my own to live for a year.

Finland was a place where I first gained a lot of weight. Much of my social activity surrounded eating and I went from living in boarding school where my eating was tightly controlled to an environment where I could eat whatever I wanted whenever I wanted to.

For the week that we were there I re-visited the amazing flavours of the cakes and breads as well as familiar Finnish family meals like fish soup (full of cream) and meat loaf. I had not eaten some of this food for so long, that I had seconds at almost every meal.

When we returned I jumped on the scale expecting to see an extreme weight gain, only to see that it hadn't been so much. The cold weather and all the walking must have balanced out the larger meals that I had been eating.

The problem has been that since returning I have struggled with the hard reality of having to return to a disciplined regime of eating. Somehow, the connection with my memories of being eighteen and the freedom of eating whatever I wanted, made me want to be like that again.

Of course, the reality is, if I eat whatever I want whenever I want, I gain weight. This week I have confronted this issue and humbly returned to monitoring my eating and recording the weight on my scale.

I really cannot deviate from watching what I eat. Every time I do, I end up really struggling to get back on track and in this horrible "yo-yo" pattern. I realise it is a cognitive issue and have re-visited Martha Beck. Somehow, I need to get into a pattern of thinking where making healthier eating choices is more important than being able to eat whatever, whenever.

I'm working on it. So much of my lifestyle is healthy that it would be wonderful to overcome this issue once and for all.
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  • JEANKNEE
    Having the awareness that one cannot deviate from watching what is eaten is half the battle. Revisiting Beck is good thinking on your part.

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  • DESIREE672
    When I was nineteen, I spent two months as an au pair in Finland. . It was a family with two very young children. The wife missed her career and ate all day. I ate with her with predictable results!

    I liked Finland a lot and would love to visit it again. You took me down memory lane, too!
    907 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/5/2018 4:39:42 AM
  • KELLIEBEAN
    How wonderful that you had the experience of reliving your youth... the sights, sounds, tastes and smells. Then yeah, back to reality but it's great you recognize it's a healthy reality. You are a great role model for your child to... taking good care of yourself.

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  • -WISDOM-
    I believe there are many of us that deal with this same struggle. You can overcome this!
    908 days ago
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