a good life lesson
Saturday, June 02, 2018
I still can't believe I did it. I really thought I had it under control. Got on the scale today thinking yep I got it made, I'm going to make it. I only had one pound to go. and yes I still have until tomorrow to see which way it goes. And, I can tell myself this until I'm blue in the face but it didn't help any at all.
I made up a good lunch before I headed off to work. Unfortunately, I didn't make enough for my supper as well. Leaving me hungry and with out any proteins was really feeling the hunger. So, when break time came I walked through store looking for some good healthy choices. And, feeling upset with myself because I didn't make my mark. But, still what was the deal anyway. It was only one pound. Let's look at the big picture here. I had lost a big 19 pounds. That's a of weight to lose. so, then why did I feel like I let myself down? There is always the next time with this challenge to go for it.
Got a little off track there, I made a good choice when it came to choosing my veggie, then on to the next aisle where my down fell came. Beef sticks. Ok ,so you say what can a couple of beef sticks hurt? right?, One even maybe two would suffice. But, not me, I had to devour the whole package of six. and to top it off cherry nibs right up there. When it was all said and done I literally made myself sick.
No, it wasn't worth it, but, there was a listen there for me to learn. And, I do hope I learned my listen. All week I have been keeping in mind that I only had one pound to lose. And, yes it had been anther one of those weeks that the boss called me up and asked to fill in. And, for some reason I can never say no. But, that isn't the problem, I really thought that eating right and doing some hard cleaning around the house and yard and mowing lawn would be enough exercise to help lose that extra pound. Maybe if I just wanted to maintain. it would have been fine. Because that is what I did, I maintained this week. Instead of losing that extra one that I really wanted to lose. No matter how I look at it. It was all up to me, my choices and instead of owning up to the fact that I did not fail in my challenge. I did the best I could and next time I need to take the extra step if I want to achieve it.
And instead of giving in to self pity as I call it, and over indulged to the point of making me sick from eating junk food. I need to take a step back and look at it for what it really is. I'm on a journey, one that will take at least a year to accomplish. One that I choose to be on for myself and for my wonderful Husbandman. One that in the end will be the best that I can be.
Then I will be starting anther journey, one of maintaining. So in the mean time, even though I think I got a handle on those temptations I really have to ask myself ,"do I?', because in reality I may have them under control for the moment, but there is always next time when the temptation win outs. The more I can resist the more it will come easier next time.