Still limping along
Wednesday, June 06, 2018
I haven't posted since January, when I was surprised by some happy results on the scale. that was short-lived. The weight went right back up.
I've been in perimenopause for a couple of years now...hot flashes, the whole deal. I had gone 12 months without a visit from my monthly friend, and I had figured that I was done. It came back on the 13th month. During that time (which lasted for about 2 weeks), I was sleeping better, had tons of energy, and actually lost weight. When the red tide receded, the fatigue came back, the hot flashes came back, and so did the weight.
This middle-age thing sucks.
I've been seeing an endocrinologist, who has been messing with my thyroid meds, trying to get me optimized. I was actually hyper thyroid for a bit; the dose was too high. He lowered the dose. What he also did was thoroughly examine every metabolic test I've ever had, and told me that there was no clinical reason for me to be exhausted, and no clinical reason why I couldn't lose weight. He offered me antidepressants, came within a hair of calling me crazy, and re-diagnosed me with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.
He told me this, and the prospect of another 20-40 years of being exhausted with no end in sight ever just filled me with despair. I sat in my car and cried for about 20 minutes before I drove home.
When I got home, the Dude told me to find another endocrinologist and get a second opinion. Yeah...this is the third doctor that doesn't know what's wrong with me, and he's a specialist. I got on Google Scholar, read some peer-reviewed journal articles, and gave myself my own second opinion.
I bought myself some bio-identical progesterone cream. It's supposed to help with menopause symptoms, like hot flashes and fatigue. It can also help with weight. If I felt better during That Time Of The Month, that would seem to indicate that I felt better when my hormones were working. So I'm going to give it a shot. the Amazon reviews were filled with women who felt better.
I mean...something's gotta give. I'm a whole-foods vegetarian. I work out 3-4 times a week doing high intensity exercise. I've been working out at Orangetheory for almost a year and a half. I'm seeing all the people around me developing chiseled physiques. Not me. Clothes don't fit better, weight is the same. The only good thing I can say is that I'm keeping the weight level and not gaining.
It seems like I'm doing everything right, and I still feel like crap all the time. I will give this stuff a month and see if anything improves.