They're "upgrading" our beloved sparksite. Sigh. I had JUST figured out how to navigate the LAST round of "improvements" (that did NOT improve squat!!!)
I really do NOT have time to relearn AGAIN, but it's not like we get a choice. Actually, we DO. Adjust or quit. Quitting needs to not happen.
So, forced adaptation it is. It is going to be a major setback for me (and probably many others) because I can either skip workouts to spend the time learning to use the "new and improved" spark when it comes out, or quit spark and try to continue on my own.
We all know how working on our own goes-it usually doesn't end well. It just-well...ends...
So, my stress level is on the rise. I just got approved for the next school year, so was planning my time VERY carefully. I wanted to get my gpa back up to 3.5 (currently 3.1, the mama drama took it's toll. She's passed now, so the drama is over) and still spend an hour a day on healthy meals, another hour on exercise of some kind, and enough hours on my business to keep it growing.
There are not enough hours in the day to do all that AND relearn the sparksite. Keep in mind, I have been consistently working on RE-finding the tools I used successfully at the beginning of my journey, and when they got "relocated " And I couldn't find them, I backslid...a lot.
And now? I had finally started making progress again. This "news" is not encouraging to me, it is very disheartening and discouraging. It feels like sabotage again.
I know it isn't, but the way things ARE and the way they FEEL are rarely the same.
How am I planning to handle it?
I am going to work hard on my food and exercise until they change the site. When the "improvements" hit, I will stop spending time exercising, cut back on my food prep time, and put that time into relearning the site-AGAIN, while I try to maintain. I will TEMPORARILY give up on active losing until I have conquered the sabotaging "improvements" instead of trying to do it all and failing at it all.
While I am still vocal and venting about the annoyance, I have made great strides forward in making a plan ahead of time, instead of waiting and reacting (badly) to the stress.
I am cautiously hopeful that the changes aren't going to totally suck, but I am also fully prepared for it to be worse than I can possibly imagine.
Tomorrow morning -5am pool.
This coming "upgrade" is NOT getting the drop on me!