Really, I Have No Idea What's Going On
Friday, June 15, 2018
I feel a little like I cheated or something.
I lost 10lbs in 11 days and it just felt too easy this time around.
Maybe I should explain more. You see, the last time I set out to lose weight I had the hardest time losing the first 10 and I just kind of gave up. I barely managed to find the motivation to eat better and I just couldn’t seem to pull myself off the couch for any exercise at all. After 2 months of half a$$ dieting I managed to drop 10 but I just could not hold on to my pathetic attempt any longer. I still didn’t want to be as heavy as I was, but I also had zero urge to get up and do anything about it either. That was probably sometime last year…
A couple weeks ago I just sort of had it with myself. I was so stir crazy and bored and the couch started to feel suffocating. I didn’t want to watch any of my usual shows. I didn’t feel like picking a movie on Netflix or Prime. I couldn’t seem to find anything good to read. I wanted out! Out of what I wasn’t sure at first, so I settled for literally going out. I went to the nearby lake and went for a very long walk. Sweet relief, the restlessness went away.
And that’s how it’s been for the last 11 days. I can’t seem to hold still for very long without the restlessness coming back and I figured what the heck I’m going to go buy the healthy foods I know I love and can eat endlessly without getting sick of them. Like avocado, strawberries, peaches and pineapple. I love fruit and I know a lot of diets push veggies over fruit, but fruit is still better than pizza and beer so here I am 11 days later and 10lbs lighter without feeling like I’m forcing myself to do anything.
I know it can’t go on like this forever, but whatever part of my mind cracked, can it just please stay cracked for a little while longer?