Anger Issues - Finding Joy
Wednesday, June 27, 2018
Well I had a big blow up with my partner last night. I don't know why I can get so angry. Yeah part of it is PMDD. Ok a lot of it is that. But getting angry and how I react to anger do not really need to be the same. I could get angry, acknowledge that I am angry, and NOT blow up about it. I could chill out and calm down. I'm still working on me, and this anger problem is the main reason I am in therapy at the moment. But, last night I just flew off the handle, like in the old days, instead of using the coping skills I have been learning.
Then last night I saw a great affirmation from Louise Hay's website: I begin and end my day with gratitude and joy.
I have tried to remember to express gratitude, but joy? Not so much. I read another article here on Spark People that says we can find joy in the mundane things of every day living. I've never found joy in washing the dishes, but really I could if I tried. And I can be grateful, as it means I have food to eat and a place to live. Lately my days off I've just spent being lazy and a homebody. There's no joy in feeling worthless and alone. But I am surrounded by the things that I love, even if the people (and my dog) are not here at the moment!
I'm serious about getting healthy, and that is something I can be joyful about