Six Weeks Since Surgery
Saturday, June 30, 2018
Having my last cup of coffee for a while. I may restart later, but I'm releasing it for now. I noticed yesterday how it made my stomach feel and decided it was time to quit. Yesterday was supposed to be my last day, lol, but I made a cup out of habit, so today is. I unplugged the coffee maker and am going to put up all the coffee stuff so even if I try, habit cannot take over.
One of the interesting things the surgeon told me yesterday at my follow up was that I can't, physically cannot, get hungry. The nerves and such need to heal and at this point past surgery they have not. So if I feel hungry it's either emotional hunger, or thirst. Nifty. I have gotten to where I felt very hungry, and I'm betting it was thirst. Knowing that puts things in perspective for me.
The two times I've lost my lunch, so to speak, has been when I have eaten chicken. The nurse was saying that her Mom had the surgery and has never been able to eat chicken again. Wow. I hope I learn how to cook fish really good. Maybe ask my BIL to smoke some salmon for me. For now it is tuna, as I said in yesterday's blog. Mainly because it is a very moist protein.
I did not lose as much weight as I could have. Not even close. The surgeon and dietitian did their best to make me feel better about it, but I just feel awful. I have their permission to do two shakes a day and one very small meal, so that I can reset my mind on what I should be doing and get in the habit of not eating much. In fact I'm okayed to spend a few days, just a few, on just shakes. So my goal is to lose a total of 40 pounds by the end of the 3 month mark. In order to do that I'm going to have to focus and stay on task (the surgeon okayed this goal). No extra's, no snacks, no oops I did it out of habit.
I want to fit comfortably in my size 18's that I can button but can't breath in. In fact I want to be down to a size 16 if possible. I want to be walking, and increasing my walking as much as possible, whether on a path or on my treadmill. I want to wow my family with how much different I look from losing weight. I want to learn how to cook the things I need to cook for myself so that I can eat healthy. I want to not just walk my pup, but wear her out and get her in excellent shape too. I am looking forward to reaping the benefits of actually sticking to this, and I know I can.
I think the key will be taking it in very short amounts of time and not planning too far ahead. Or planning ahead, writing it down on my planner and then not worrying about it till that day. You know write down my days for legs, arms, core and total body, then forget about it till that day when I look at that page (I'm using a paper planner) and see what the day holds. One of the keys the doctor said was to do strength training. Not bulk up, but to build enough muscle that my metabolism goes up and I lose more weight. So strength training 5 days a week and I think I'll do whatever my blogilates team video for the day is, we'll see how that works.
Also I'm to use my cpap every night. I have started back using it. There for a while they had it cranked up to an 8.5 and I could not breath, and then I got my cough back... but now I'm on the cpap for at least half of the night and I'm going to start trying to remember to put it back on and use it for the whole night. The surgeon said that basically your body does the math at night while you are sleeping on how much to burn off and how much to store, but if you are not sleeping right, it gets the math wrong and stores too much. Makes sense. A very dumbed down version for me, but very understandable.
So I've got to let my coffee settle and then I'm going to be off to work out. Won't have this problem tomorrow, no coffee!