Puppies, emotions and more!
Thursday, July 12, 2018
Hope at 1 week old. Tomorrow I will pick her up at 8 weeks old. I can't wait, but will have to, I can't pick her up till about 3 in the afternoon. Phooey. But, she is seeing the vet in the morning, so I don't have much of a choice. Apparently this vet is really slow, so it may be even later. Bummer.
Pickles (little half beagle half corgi family dog) is being barky and clingy. Partly because I'm injured (knee surgery) partly because he can sense that something is different. Perhaps he can tell my excitement at getting Hope. I've got my leg propped up on the side of the footstool, he is taking up the rest of it.
I'm pretty much stuck downstairs, I can't use the crutches to go up b/c I have to have someone behind me to do that in case I fall. Perhaps I could go up one step at a time on my butt. LOL, I didn't sleep well last night so I'm contemplating a nap, later.
I'm still not doing good emotionally, I was hoping to resolve it by now, but I just don't know why my anxiety is so high. I'm making a list of things to talk about to my therapist, and if it keeps up I'm making a sooner appointment with my psych doc. Depression started creeping in on Sunday, it is still not too bad, but I can feel myself slipping. Don't like at all. I guess it is all part of living with anxiety, PTSD and Bipolar. But at least I'm not as bad as I used to be. Thank God. I do get that bad on occasion, but the times are fewer and farther between. My worry right now is that I've been so anxious for so long (like three weeks now) I'm starting to emotionally numb. NOT a good coping mechanism. Not good at all.
Anyway, I've got to somehow get upstairs to clean my room today (and take a nap, last night was rough), I'll have the kids help. Get things out of the way so she can get to her kennel and all that jazz. Yay! I can't exercise for a week, not till I see the ortho doc on Tuesday and get his okay to start walking on the treadmill again. But as soon as the pain block wears off I can start putting most of my weight on it and should be off the crutches by tomorrow when I pick up my pupper. Only downside is that I can't take a shower till Saturday, bummer. But that is what dry shampoo is for I guess, lol.