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Thursday, July 19, 2018

The scale is not my friend today. I only lost two pounds. I know that is something to be happy about, but I have not been my own friend recently. I ate things I should not have. In amounts I definitely should not have. Not all at once, spread out over the day... and night. I've got to stop. It's emotional eating. So difficult to stop doing that. Having Hope (puppy) doesn't help because then I'm up in the middle of the night a lot. But I love her, and this is just a stage, we will get through it. I hope.

This is us. She is aggravating aka trying to play with Pickles, the family dog (corgi/beagle mix) right now. They actually played together for a while yesterday, it was so cute. Part of it was just them racing around the living room the other part they played tug-of-war with DH.

I've been letting the lack of sleep and current depression get me down. I've got to, as DH says, push through. I know that is easier said than done. I'm so depressed I don't want to get out of bed, but waking up to she Hope curled around DH's head and licking his forehead and DH laughing and asking what she is doing helps get me up. Mind you that was at 0230. I'm tired.

So tomorrow I'm keeping my alarm set instead of turning it off. Making tea instead of coffee. Taking a tylenol for my headache I'll get from not enough sleep instead of going back to bed. I'll do my usual routine of working out in the morning and drinking a shake. I just have to add in my new routine with Hope, training her and playing with her and bonding. Which by the way is going great. She will sit and down for a treat.

I'm hoping tomorrow I can push through. I'm not going to expect myself to get everything done, but I can try to get the basics done.


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    Glad you posted about it--I was wondering how you were doing. Writing no doubt helps. Cheering you on!

    Don't be too hard on yourself. When I was in college, I saw a lot of gal's would verbally say "i am so depressed" or something like that when they were really just super duper sleep deprived. It is normal to need sleep. It is normal to feel the difference between needing sleep and well rested. I think it is really common to cross over the distinction between depression and need for sleep.

    Eating carbs, when sleep deprived, can temporarily give us a sugar boost so we feel like we have a bit more energy--just human physiology. Common again to turn to this is a temporary solution, but what is needed is sleep, as you've already identified in your post. Many first-time parents go through this--and new puppy owners too, hm?

    623 days ago
    I'm so glad bonding with Hope is going well. Rest when you can, and I'll be praying for some peaceful, restorative sleep. It might be rough at first, but keep pushing on. It will all be worth it.
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    623 days ago
    Maybe look at it this way: that's two pounds that are not pounding on your knees.
    624 days ago
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